Vampire Academy: Broken Trust

Chapter 16

ROSE

We sit in the kitchen, Oksana, Olena and me with Yulian leaning on the door-frame. I was surprised she came. Does that mean that Dimitri is staying at their place? I wonder what he told them.

"How are things at home?" Oksana asked Olena when she gave her a glass of water.

"A lot happier now, when my son is back." she smiles. I can see her happiness through her eyes. I remember her with sorrow and sad look in her chocolate brown eyes while I was staying there. She tried to look tough to her family but I noticed...

"How is little Sofia?" Oksana continued the conversation and sat at the table.

"Sofia?" I ask. I don't remember any Sofia in the family.

"Sofia is my granddaughter," she smiles, "Sonja's child."

"Oh, she had a girl." I smile. I feel happy for her. But it makes me remember about that bastard of Sofia's father that was hooking up with Victoria after he was done with Sonja. The reason I left the Belikov family was because Victoria and I had a fight about it. I think I would even stay there if there wouldn't be for that fight.

"I brought you that home-made bread you and Dimitri like that much." she said and looked at the basket she brought with her. "Speaking of you and Dimitri... what happened between you two?"

Oksana knew she was in the way so she made an excuse, "I think I hear a phone ringing, I'll be right back," and Yulian, "what was that Ivan? You need help with cutting out those wooden sculpture thingies, I'm coming!"

"So?" Olena wanted an answer. Should I tell her?

"It just didn't work out." I said. Olena rolled her eyes.

"It's exactly what Dimka said."

"Because, it's true." I say trying to convince her. "So, Dimitri finally told you that he's back." I change the subject and start playing with my glass.

"Why not? It's amazing that he got cured from strigoi!"

"Yeah, that's what I was telling him the whole time... He was scared I guess... because he was a strigoi and it wasn't easy to go through all of that..."

"You saved him. Thank you." she said kindly.

"No, I didn't. Lissa did. With her spirit."

"You found him. You got through a lot trying to save my Dimka's soul. Thank you." And that words brought me back to those Russian streets, that house and that apartment I spent a lot of time drugged by Dimitri. That woman is thanking me for all that time spent away from school, from Lissa. And I can't keep my tears away.

"And I'm sorry if I say it wrong, but I think that it's ridiculous you and Dimka didn't work out. It sounds funny to me!" she laughs. "What’s really wrong... Tell me, Roza."

Dammit! If I tell her... Is she going to think the same as others or is she going to believe me. Here goes nothing...

"I. Am. Pregnant." I say looking at my hands. "And I know what you are thinking about right now. It's what all of you are thinking. But this child is Dimitri’s."

"Roza, I may be a Russian dhampir living in a place where everyone is called a blood whore but I know enough, that two dhampirs cannot have children." she said.

I knew it. But she was still not  looking at me with hate. She took her coat from the chair and started to walk to the front door.

"I need to go, now. Enjoy the bread."

"Wait. Olena, please. Give me the chance to explain."

"It's not on me to believe you or not. And besides, how can you explain something you are not sure for yourself?"

"No. I know that this child is his. I just don't know how."

"You see..?" Olena said. "Take care, Rose." And she left.

And I know now what am I going to do. I'm going to make sure that, I know how this child is possible.

"Let's get inside. It's getting dark." Oksana said and closed the door.

It's almost four months of my pregnancy and my stomach is getting bigger and bigger every time i look at it. That makes me see how quickly the time is passing.

I wonder what Lissa is doing now. How are things going on the Court? Is she still that busy? Or did they get on Robert's track yet?

No. If they would find out where Robert is, she would already tell me somehow.

I miss her. Last time I saw her was on the Academy and I think our relationship got better. I started to feel more then just hate and realized that it was obvious she didn't say a thing. If I put myself in her shoes I would probably do the same thing. She didn't accuse me of cheating, she just didn't say anything.

Damn, I want to call her and tell her that I'm sorry but I can't because I'm not allowed to call anyone. I hope she's going to forgive me, my rebel attitude and my hormones.

I walk to the kitchen and take some of that bread. I offer it to everybody else and now we are all sitting in the kitchen spreading some butter on it.

Yulian had his black hair wet from showering and he had bags under his eyes, Ivan and Yulian just woke up. He was still singing the song from before. He likes to sing Russian old songs which I find a little strange. He looks like a guy who would love rock or metal...

"So, are you going to see your families on Christmas?" I ask those two. But it looks like the question affected them somehow. They didn't say anything back. Yulian stood up and walked to his room. Ivan first looked at him going away but then he continued staring at his plate.

"I didn't mean to..." I try to apologize.

"I know... It's just that... it's still a delicate thing to talk to him about." he said. "And no. We're staying here for Christmas. Because we don't have any family."

"I'm so sorry..." I say. Oksana and Mark were doing those moves that made me know that they're talking through the bond. And I was feeling bad and awkward. "Can I ask why?" I was curious.

"Yulian was not as good as a guardian that he was supposed to be. Before he graduated he went strigoi hunting with a couple of friends. It turned out some strigoi which he and his three other friends tried to hunt down was too strong for all of them. Strigoi killed them all except my brother. The thing is that Yulian had done to that strigoi the most damage. And he promised Yulian that he's going to kill all of his family." I stopped breathing for a moment... Poor brothers. "He didn't break his promise. I was in the last year of education and we had that test where teachers put every novice to protect a moroi. I had to stay there day and night. So I and Yulian were the last one alive. My mother, two sisters and two nieces were all dried of blood, that's how Yulian found them a little after he found his dead friends."

"I'm so sorry."

"Yulian has been accusing himself for death of eight people he loved. And I as his brother I couldn't hate him for it. If I would, he would be alone, I would be alone. We only have each other now." I try to make him feel better and brush his back with my hand. He looked at me and gratefully smiled. I saw his eyes were watery.

I can't imagine how hard it must have been with all that guilt... Yulian has a great big brother. Most of people would hate him for that. But Ivan forgave him and moved on with only two of them. I admire him for that.

After all this drama I couldn't sleep calm that night. I watched snow falling slowly outside and slept only few hours that night.