Nobody Understands

Time & Tides

How could you?

You don't know who you have became, let alone figure

That leap sure made you a human of humility

But you remained sad deep in the down

Despite being grateful to God

When you pretended to be happy

You fell for the highlights,

Forgetting that their heights could hurt you

Drunken by dreams,

You couldn't see through those bright blurs

It hit you hard,

But for once you decided not to fall free,

You wanted to give your all just for that promised forever your God has guaranteed you

You became someone else altogether,

You allowed pain to poison you, when it almost killed you

You thought that idiocy held no grounds for those ideas stealing your heart,

While you went through what you thought you had to go through

You closed your eyes and you forgot what yesterday felt like

Tomorrow was a poison when hope died today

You tried killing your rage before it was overpowering you

But then you smelled the thickness of betrayal surrounding you

Lost in somewhere you never thought you'd wander

But there you were feeling the prick of thorns you never saw coming

You tasted the tears of unknown while smiling your life out

You didn't know what or who you were when you placed yourself among those people you turned away your cheek from

When the lands had sewn delicate lies, you knew how alone you'd always be, how sad you'd be

No matter how brave you try to be, you know you would break in a blink of an eye

You would have to respect while being disrespected, cause that's what men like

No one would care to look closely, nobody would think of you, you would become a joke, a drama queen, a maid but worst of all, a girl

Nobody would notice your tears even if they are shed in front of everyone

Your biggest mistake is your existence, you would forget God, you would try to ignore Him because you would know that if you try to remember Him, your heart would tremble in guilt

No one would listen to you, you would find yourself sitting alone in a dark room typing whatever, reading what's meant to be listened

You would sound ungrateful, you would have all things most wouldn't, and yet that wouldn't make you happy, and they are the least of it

And what hurt you the most was when your own mother told you that your father's house was never meant for you while your heart always belonged there

You would live in a home you wouldn't love, you would never find a true home in this world

Some forevers don't even last long, it's all a feeling, you are a fool for falling for it

But you did, you asked for it

You didn't only forget what you stood for, but you were ready for that chapter in a book that you were never a part of

How could you?