Killing ME Softly

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Carter Took Us To Get Icecream & Took Nyla to the Park To Play Herself Tired. It Was too Hot For The Park, but Anything For That little Girl. She Was Sleep On the Way Home. When We Got there Carter Said "What You Finna Do"? "Take Nyla In the House Since She Sleep & Go Over Asiaa House"! "Don't Be Getting Into Shit"! I Laughed & Said "I Love You Baby, Call Me On Your break" "I Ain't Laughing, but Alright. Give Me A Kiss"! I Gave Him A Long Soft Passionate Kiss, Got Nyla & Took Her In the House. Mama Was In there Cooking Macaroni & Cheese, Sweet Potatoes, Baked Chicken Greens& Cornbread ! She Said "Hey Baby. Where Y'all Been"? I Hate When She Do this. When She Treat Me & Nyla Like Crap She try to Make Up for it by Cooking & Making Conversation. Nyla Falls For it Because She's A Kid & That's Her Mother , But I'm Over it. Her Head Ain't Right. I Kept Walking On To the Back & I Layed Nyla Down In Her Bed & Walked Out. I Hate Leaving Her there , but I Be Needing to Just Chill By My Lonely & With My Bestfriend Asiaa Sometimes. I Was Walking Out The Door & My Mom Said "Aye"! I Just Looked At Her. She Said "Um What's Wrong With You Girl"? "Mama Please Don't Act Like Earlier You Wasn't Trippen Cuz A 3 year Old Accidentally Wasted Weed On the Floor"! "You Get Upset About Your Weed Also"! "Yea. Mad At You & Andre For Taking My Shit Without Me Knowing About it. I Don't Even Smoke Around Nyla"! "Girl Whatever. She Shoulda Been Alot More Careful. I Didn't Whoop Her Hell, Her Crazy Ass Daddy Did. I Don't Know Why You Mad At Me"! "Because Moma You Allowed Him to Do it"! "That's Her Daddy Kammi"!! "& You Her Mama Tanna" "Don't Call Me by My First Name Little Girl"! "Whatever, I'm Out"! She Grabbed Me & Said "You Think You too Damn Grown. You Can Get Ya Ass Out My House. For Good"!! "I Will" Yanking Away from Her. I Went to My Room & Started Packing. She Came In there & Said "Get Everything. Don't Come Back." I Didn't Respond.After I Was Through Packing  I Just Grabbed My Bags & Left.
I Pulled Up At Asiaa House , She Was Standing Outside Smoking A Cigarette & On the Phone. This Been My Bestfriend Since We Were 4. We've Lived Together Once Upon A Time.We fought Together, laughed together, Cried Together & Everything Else. Her Mama Passed When We Were 18, 2 Days After We Graduated from Cancer. She Still Made it to Her Child Graduation tho. Weak And All. She Was the Best Mom. Better than Mine. Asiaa's Dad Isn't In Her Life Nomore, So She Live Alone & been Taking Care Of Herself Well. I Just Hate She Smoke Cigarettes Now & Just  Changed When Her Mom Died. I Got Out The Car, And She Was On the Phone With Her Lil Boo Khalil ! She Said "Hey bestfriend"! I Said "Can I Stay Here For like A Month"? "Moms Trippen Again"? "You Know That"! "Where Nyla"? I Said "Shit"!! Not Realizing I Left Without Saying Anything To Her. I Mean She Was Sleep,but I Can't Even Go Back. Asiaa Said "What's Wrong"? "Nothing. She's At Home"! "Oh Ok Well You Know You Can Sleep With Me , but When Khalil Comes Over, the Couch It Is" & Started laughing & I Said "Ok"! I Got My Stuff Out The Backseat & Took it Inside & Put It In the Hallway Closet & Went To CJ Job.
When I Got To Taco Bell He Was Standing Outside On break Smoking A Cigarette. Ugh I Wish Him & Asiaa Will kill this Mess. Some Girl Approached Him. I Just Sat there & Watched. They Was Doing All this Talking & Laughing. They Was Talking So Much I Got tired Of Sitting In that Hot Ass Car & Got Out. I Walked Up to Them & Said "What's this CJ"? Smiling."Just Out Here Talking"! "I Looked At Her & Said "Hi. I'm Carter's Girlfriend." She Said "Oh Ok Well Nice to Meet You"! She Looked A Lil Nervous. "I Can't Say the Same. Look Like You Was Flirting With My Man. I Don't Do that Fake Shit"! She Looked At Carter & Said "I'll See You Around"! Looked At Me & Said "Maybe" Still talking to Him! I Winked My Eye At Her& She Walked off. I Looked At CJ & Said "Some You Wanna tell Me"? "Hell Naw Mane She Just Came Up to Me & Started A Conversation. Nothing Serious." "Whatever. Look I Came Here To Tell You I Got Put Out My Mama House & Tomorrow I'm Going Apartment Hunting"! "What You Get Put Out For K'?" "Mama Just Stupid". He Said "You Gone Have to Control Yourself Kammi. I told You No On that Apartment Hunting Shit"! "Well What Else Am I Suppose to Do Carter Damn? Live With Asiaa Forever"? "That's Where You Staying? Hell Naw take Yo Ass Back to Momz Crib & I'm Not Playing"!! Carter Don't Deal With Asiaa Every Since She Had This House Party full Of Niggas. Females too, but He Ain't trust that Shit With Me Being there. He Don't Understand Why She Had the Party & She Got A Boyfriend, but She Was Just Doing it For Fun & She Koo' With Alot Of Dudes. She Just Wanted to Chill & Kick it. I Said "Carter Asiaa Is In A Relationship & She Faithful. That Party Was Completely Innocent" he Said "She Hang With too Many Niggas & You Don't Need to Live With Her. You Already Go Over there All the time. I Said "Well When You Get Me A Spot, then We Can Talk. If I Can't Get My Own Apartment then Asiaa House Is Where I Will Be Staying. You Know Yo Mama Ain't finna Let Me Live With Y'all. She Love Me , but Not that Much"! "Mane Kammi My Break Over , but We Gone Finish this Conversation"! "I Ain't Got Nonelse to Say CJ. I Really Don't"! He Rolled His Eyes & Pouted, turning Around Finna Go Back Inside. I Grabbed His Arm & Said "I Can't Get A Kiss"? He Gave Me A Quick Peck & Walked Inside. He's Mad, but He Will be Alright. I Gotta Have Somewhere to Lay My Head & My Mama House Ain't it. I Wish He Would Understand that.