Insanity

insanity - 6

I wish I knew how to deal with everything, all the pain, but unfortunately I do not. I can always prolong it though, the memories it brings; I request a canvas and new paint everyday, the staff members usually oblige, usually; today they thought it best if they didn't fulfill my request though, so here I am with my paintbrush, slowly stroking the finishing touches to the wall I painted. It was of the last happy birthdays I had with my family, when dad was around, when he cared; we were all smiling but most importantly my sister and  I were laughing, that was how I painted it, because that was how I would always remember it, not the day father walked out, not the day mum started to yell at us, no, I remember it because my sister and I were happy and laughing.