Secret Love Song

Chapter 10

Part 10

Hampir satu bulan sdh sy sama si Glenn tidak berjumpa. Adalah kmi phone call juga tp sy hairan ni selalu dia mau marah2 sy. Bila sy desak bawa dia jumpa, dia ckp dia busy. Why? Sy kol dia time tu...Rindu bah kan, kalo dkat satu bulan sdh xjumpa? Napa pula dia berubah sdh ni?

"Hello Dear..."
"Hello Ilet?" Dia panggil sy Ilet bukan lagi baby. Napa macam sy rasa xsedap hati ja ni...Takkn dia curang sama sy..Oh please..😭

"Dear, why tidak pnggil baby?"
"Aishhh suka hatilah. Macam mau muntah bah pnggil baby Ilet." Trus tgamam ni sy dia ckp begitu. Why? People Change?

"Dear, sy mau jumpa dear. Sy rindu dear. Please!"

"Ilet, I think better we keep the distance. I don't wanna see you for this time. I'm really sorry."

"Dear, apa salah saya?"
"No, ko xsalah Ilet. It's me yg salah. Nanti sy explain. Sorry..."
"Dear....??!" Tp si Glenn end call. Kenapa dia buat sy macam ni???

Tanpa buang masa, sy turun nangis2 sambil peluk si Brenda.

"Endaaa!!"
"Kenapa ko ni let?"
"Sy rasa si Glenn curang sma sy. Berubah sdh cara layanan dia. Bukan mcam dlu lagi..."
"Jgn dlula fikir bukan2, mgkin juga dia bz bah tu."
"Satu bulan Enda, kami xjumpa?"
"Alaaa, relax lah...Sy sama abg Valen ko pun 3bulan sdh xjumpa."
"Itu lain bah Enda..." Terus sy ambl kunci kreta & pecut laju...Mau pigi mana? Fikiran sy betul2 kucar kacir waktu tu. Sampaila sy teingt something...

Sy pecut laju pigi rumah si Glenn. Tapi hampa! Rumah tu kosong ja...Tiada saturang pun di dalam. Kena kunci mangga dorang pya grill...Sy pun mcm org gila, kasi goyang2 tu grill.

"Glennn !!! Bukaaa!!!"
"Dear, sy tau ko di dalam!"
"Dear, knp buat sy macam ni?
"Dear, ko xsayang sy sdh ka?"

Lama sy beduduk sana grill sambil menngis. Trus tiba2...

Vroom...Vrooom...Vroomm...Sy tinguk si Adam? Tp sy xhirau dia...Dia trus pecut lju ja tanpa tya napa sy nangis. Sy rasa betul2 sedih..Inika semua balasan yg sy buat ni ar? Kenapa bah macam ni? Apa salah sy?

Last2 sy blik rumah, hmpir satu minggu jugala sy minta surat sakit walaupun tidak sakit. Sy xpigi kuliah..Sy bkurung ja dalam bilik...Sy xmau makn..Makanan yg sy rasa semua pahit...Tiada org brni pujuk sy, sbb mmg sy akan mengamuk. Macam mau jadi org gila sudah sy..

Mumy sama daddy pun ada try pujuk sy..Tapi sy kasi skit pula hati dorang sampai mumy nangis tinguk sy macam tu..

"Violet, sdhla tu. Mummy tau ko sedih bah, jgn lah ko mcm ni..Risau kami npk ko macam ni..."

"Arghh!!! Kenapa mumy mau peduli, selama ni mumy xpena peduli pun sma sy..Selalu kmu outstation. Kamu xpena ambl tau pun apa masalah sy, bila masa sy perlukan kamu...Sy benci! Napa mumy kasi lahir sy???"

Mumy try mo peluk sy, tapi sy tepis tangan mumy...Sampai lah dady pigi pigang tangan sy...

"Daddy pun sama, lgsg xpena ambl tau pasal sy..Daddy cuma gila duit ja.!"

"Pakkkk!!!" Tiba2 sy terasa pipi sy sangat panas & pedas. First time dalam hidup sy kena tampar oleh daddy sy...Sy sangat2 benci!!!

Lama sy bkurung di bilik, nasibla juga di blik sy ada toilet. Si Brenda yg slalu kasi kawn sy & pujuk sy..Tapi still sy pya hati betul2 tawar sdh. Sy tlpau rindu si Glenn. Hampir dua bulan sdh dia mghlg...Sy pula? Tpksa kasi extend sy punya pengajian. Sampai dorng mumy, tpksa panggil dr pakar psikologi utk kasi sembuh sy. Tp xapa2 perubahan.
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1 week later....

Ngam2 abg habis pengajian, dia pulang sbb tinggal mau graduate utk master dia lagi kan...Sy mengaku memang abg lah pengubat luka sy, maybe sbb kmi sdh rapat dari kecil lagi. Memang diala tenpat sy meluaj kn, yalah sebb parents sy jenis yg terlampau melebihkan business dari family.

Yes, maybe money can buy a lot of things..But it can't buy happiness. We never appreciate something in our life unless you lost them. 😭😥

"Ilet, napa macam ni? Napa Ilet xdgr apa yg dorang mumy ckp?"

"Abg..." Sy berabis menangis peluk abg....Sy rasa tenang sikit. Biarlah dia jauh sama sy selama ni tp dia satu2ny org yg xpena tinggalkan sy. Dia faham perasaan sy...Dia tau semua apa yg sy mau berbanding parents sy. Sometimes sy rasa abg Valen lah abg, kaka, daddy & Mumy...All in one.

"Ilet, move on lah. Mungkin ada sebab bah Glenn buat gitu."

"Abg, sebab apa lagi? Dia biar sy syg dia tapi lepas tu dia kasi tinggal sy..." Sy berabis menangis kuat2 sampai sy rasa baju sy sama bahagian dada abg pun basah sudah kena tu air mata.

"Sabar ya Ilet. Ilet perlu kuat gia. Biar masa yg membuktikan atau menjelaskan segala. Sdhla, jgn lagi nangis." Sambil abg usap2 kepala sy lembut2....Dia pigi pigang2 lagi lengan sy..

"Astga, Ilet..Kurus sdh betul oh...Ilet xmakan ka ni?"

"Babyyy!!!" Terus sy dgr tapak kaki belari naik atas. Rupanya si Brenda. Dorang beli sy bubur mcd & burger. Macam tau2 ja dorng yg sy kepingin makan smua tu.

"Makan Ilet. Nanti abg yg susah hati." Sy npk ja abg punya air mata jatuh, sy pun ikut nangis..Si Brenda pun tjoin nangis. Kami tiga2 menangis sambil bepeluk2kan....

"Jgn lagi ko begini ar Ilet, sy rindu sudah ko yg dlu." Si Brenda berabis nangis. Sy rasa bslh juga kalo selama ni dia terasa tu tempias...

"Oklah, sy tau pasti ada sesuatu penjelasan. Sy harap stu hari nnti di Glenn explain everthing."

Sedar tidak sedar, dekat 3 bulan sudah si Glenn menghilang tanpa kbr. Sy mmg sngat rindu sdh sama dia...

Glenn, where are you?

Terus sy pun buka watsapp, conversation lama sama si Glenn. Baru sy perasan yg dia ada send sy clip...Lepas tu sy dgr...Mau jatuh air mata sy dgr, dia cover tu lagu...(Cuba kmu hayati ni lagu...Memang best)

RACHAEL YAMAGATA
"Duet"
(feat. Ray LaMontagne)

🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶
Oh Lover, hold on
'till I come back again
For these arms are growin' tired,
And my tales are wearing thin

If you're patient I will surprise,
When you wake up i'll have come

All the angerwill settle down
And we'll go do all the things we should have done

Yes I remember what we said
As we lay down to bed
I'll be here if you will only come back home

Oh lover, i'm lost
Because the road i've chosen beckens me away

Oh lover, don't you rome
Now i'm fighting words I never thought i'd say

But I remember what we said
As we lay down to bed
I'll forgive you oh
If you just come back home

Hmmm mmmm
Hmmmm mmmm

Oh lover, I'm old
You'll be out there and be thinking just of me

And I will find you down the road
And will return back home to where we're meant to be

'cause I remember what we said
As we lay down to bed
We'll be back soon as we make history.
🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶

I will always miss you Glenn, sambil air mata sy jatuh.