Juliet

Disappointment

I failed today. I cried today. I fell today.  And it hurts today. My heart, it ached. My life at stake. I am stressed and feel simply nothing. But why then? Why do I cry? Why do I lie? Why die slowly on the inside? I feel like such a disappointment. I feel like I failed all my friends. I feel like I can't make everyone happy; I feel like I am not happy. I don't know anymore. I don't understand my feelings anymore. It's just a warping pain in an empty abyss and I can't take it anymore. But today is today. Yesterday was yesterday. Days go by and I'll move on but I am afraid since I don't know if my heart will be moved. My selfish intentions and lies that I get myself entangled within. But how I felt was how I felt yesterday. I feel like I threw everything away. I was a disappointment yesterday. Today, I will be the fool. Today, I shall fall again. Today, I shall be moved. Today, my heart will waver again. Today, I will be the fallen hero. Today, endure the pain again. Today, the hero will rise again. Today, I made myself the villain as I made myself the savior again. Today is today and yesterday was yesterday. Another day for the disappointment again.