How To Be Happy Single

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This was the worst day of my life.

I've been through it all: falling in love and the heartbreak and I must say that it's completely stupid to fall in love because I finally understand that everything that falls eventually breaks. The sad thing about all of this is that we, humans, go through it over and over and over and over again. I'm in this shitty mood because Nathan ended things today, or at least I think he did. The funny thing about all of this is that he's actually the reason why I'm sad, he's never done that before. Nathan was different. He wasn't like the rest, he cared and actually listened to me. For starters, he didn't just toss that four letter word around. When he said it, he meant it. I can't deny that apart of me wishes we could actually start over and be happy because we did make each other happy, it was our thing.

My thoughts are interrupted by my little sister, Hermione, waltzing in my room with her plastic tiara on. "Sam, I hereby invite you to HermiLand's tea party." She hands me a paper, with stickers all over it, that reads Next week Friday Afterschool.

"It will be my honor, Your Grace. Do I get rusk privileges?" I play along, seeing her perfect smile beaming at my question makes me feel a bit better.

"I'll discuss that with the Tea Party Committee and I'll get back to you tomorrow. Mom said I should tell you that dinner's almost ready."

"Thank you, Your Grace. Will you please close the door on your way out?"

"I'll consider it." Hermione smiles and waltzes out of my room.

My phone beeps as Hermione touches my door knob, "Greet Nathan for me." she says before closing my door and walking away.

And guess what? The text was from Nathan.

Nathan- hey

My heart sinks as I accidentally open Nathan's text.

Nathan- please call or text me back when you can, we need to talk.

Sam- okay. we can talk tomorrow before school. our spot?

Nathan- perfect, goodnight

I instantly put my phone down and take a really deep breath whilst I'm looking at my room's plain white ceiling.

"Sam! It's dinner!" Mom yells from downstairs and I let out a soft growl. I don't feel like eating right now but then it is going to look weird to everyone if I don't eat. Mom is definitely going to know there's something wrong if I don't eat with everyone downstairs.

It's not like I mind her knowing. My mom was my first best friend, we tell each other everything. I'm just scared that if I talk about this breakup then it becomes real and I don't think I'm ready for that. Not right now anyway.

"I'm coming!" I yell as I sit up and head to my wooden dresser table. I look at the mirror to make sure I don't look like how I feel. I decide to let down my long brown hair and head downstairs.

I enter the dining room and the whole family is already there. Mom, Hermione and the twins: Luke and Luka

"Sorry for keeping you guys waiting." I apologize as I take my seat and mom smiles at me with a worried look in her eye. Busted! She's probably going to ask me about what's wrong after dinner and I don't think I have the strength to have that conversation without breaking down.

Mom cooked spaghetti and meatballs for dinner. Luke and Luka both look at me after looking at each other and there's an awkward silence at the table. Spaghetti and meatballs was Dad's favorite homecooked him. He always said it reminded him of his first trip with mom to Italy. However, the reason for the awkward silence is the fact that this is the first time Mom has made this meal ever since Dad passed away last year. He was on his way home from a business trip but then he got hit by a truck three blocks away from here.