7 Reasons Why

2/7 Reasons

“One tequila sunrise please.”

I rushed my office works just so I could go here. I received a phone call from Zyril, my best friend, asking if I could see her tonight, and she sounded vulnerable in that two-minute conversation.

“Kei..” She approached me as I reached the place where she is staying.

“Who break whose heart?” tanong ko agad sa kanya. Alam ko namang dito patungo ang usapang ito.

I heard her sigh.

“Ayt, Kathryn. Ayt. You’re the best-est best friend.”

“Well, if there’s any. And how dare you call me Kathryn!” And we both laughed.

Sanay na ako sa ganitong pangyayari. She will call me just to go to a bar, where she could cry her heart out just because of some guys who are obviously not worth the pain. But what can I do? She endures it. She likes it that way.

“Ilan ba ang puso mo babae?” I asked her.

“Tanong ba talaga yan, bestf?” Zy answered me as she sips the tequila. I meant straight shot of tequila.

“I assume, kasi rising intonation sya?”

“You’re one smart bitch.”

Tinawanan ko na lang siya. This is only to lighten up the mood. Alam ko namang nasaktan siyang talaga. Siguro ganito nga ako, pero I’m no heartless bitch when it comes to my best friend.

“Pero seryoso, Zy. An earthworm has 5 hearts, an octopus has three. It’s okay to break theirs, since may reserves naman. Pero ang tao, isa lang yan eh. Ilang beses na na nawasak ang puso mo?”

And there, she cried.

I hugged her as a good will to comfort her. She’s been through rocks. And I can see it from her. Kaso nakakainis na yung reason niya,

“Akala ko kasi talaga si Jake na yung para sakin.”

Akala, akala. Kailanman walang akalang naging tama. Ang tanging akala lang na tama ay yung ‘akala ko mali ako.’

“Do you think I need to call Jake?” Nangingiyak niyang sabi sakin.

“Zy, you know I’m not good at this matter.. but do you think calling the asshole will make you feel better?"

She just continued crying. "I-I don't kn-ow." She tried to utter.

"You see? Me neither. And just cry yourself 'til you're sobber because no, I am not going to tell you that everything’s going to be okay, because obviously it’s never gonna happen.” I said straight to her face.

Real friends say real shits. That's it. That's the logic.

Hinampas niya ako in my shoulders. “You what Kei, sometimes it sucks to be me having you as my best friend.” After she said that, hinampas niya ulit ako.

I raised my brow, and crossed my arms. “And you know what Zy, it tires me listening to your dramas about love. Do you really think it exists?” I'm just curious. Why do people let themselves get hurt by lies and deceptions? Ganun na ba sila katanga? Like seriously?

“Noong nainlove ako kay Jake, it was one wonderful experience.” With feelings pa niyang sinabi. Grabe, gusto ko atang masuka. Pero sige, sakyan lang natin 'to.

“Pero sinaktan ka niya.” I said with conviction, smashing her the pain this ‘love’ they call brings.

“Hindi ko lang binigay ang gusto niya, Kei. Yun lang ‘yon pero minahal niya ako.”

Wala na lang akong sinabi, I let her assumptions out. Pag kasi nilalabas mo ang isang bagay, nakakalimutan mo yon . Hindi man malakihan, pero at least paunti-unti. 

Paunti-unti hanggang sa maubos na ang laman ng drum. 

“Bes, bakit ayaw mong subukan mainlove?” Tanong naman niya sakin.

“Para ano? Saktan ko siya at saktan niya ako? Walang pag-ibig Zyril Villabroza. Hindi totoo iyon.”

“Ganyan talaga eh. With love comes pain. But it is worth the pain.”

“Are we really talking about this? And now, for me?"

She shook her head. I shook mine too.

"Zy, dear best friend. I have seven reasons why I don’t believe in love, and I’m going to tell you one.

That ‘love’ you call is nothing but affection. If only you could see yourself right now, you wouldn’t even believe that love once existed.”

 And out of unconsciousness, she blacked out.

Dang. It’s awkward to have one tipsy lady on your shoulders. This is the disadvantage pag mataas ang alcohol tolerance mo.  We’re on our way out sa L.A.X (the bar we’re in). We pass through different ‘normal’ scenarios you could see here. May akala mo nag-uusap lang sa stool, pero naghahalikan na pala. May sumasayaw sa dance floor, na kulang na lang magtanggalan ng damit at mag-make out. You see? Where is love in this place?

At alam niyo ba kung bakit nakipag break si Jake kay Zy?

Hindi kasi pumayag si Zy sa gusto ni Jake.

Sex.

Para saan ba ang sex sa love?

For assurance, na once you did ‘it’ sakal na kayo sa isa’t isa?

Or for pleasure lang kasi nowadays it is considered as a necessity for every relationshi-t?

And there goes my reason; Lust is commonly mistaken as love. But as I say, there is no such thing as love.