UNSPOKEN

8

The day went "normal" I kept up with all my obligations, the bridal shower was a hit because I got asked for my card several times but me... I was a horrible mess. My mind kept drifting away, wondering where would Jackson be at the moment, wondering if he was thinking about me, wondering if he was thinking about his fiancé, wondering if his fiancé was an emotional wreck. I was at the bakery washing everything that I used at the bridal shower when I made the decision that I wasn't going to think about Jackson for the night. I was going out and enjoy myself because I needed to relax and let go of all the bitterness that I was dealing with. It was exhausting and I bet not attractive at all in a person.

So much for enjoying myself I thought the moment I saw Jackson crossed the door of the bar we were at. Alexa, Lauren, Connor's wife, some other girls that I barely knew and I had been in the bar for almost 2 hours when Connor, Jackson and some guys from back in the day stepped in. I wanted to crawl down the table and quietly slip out of the bar but it was impossible because the moment he stepped in the bar he located me, we locked eyes and he smiled. This is what we do best. He was trying to say. He was right. Alcohol, music and us was always the right combination. I took a huge gulp of the fruity drink I had to give myself strength for whatever I would have to endure that night.

"Ladies" said Connor and planted a kiss on his wife's lips.

"What are you doing here, Connor?" asked Alexa. She looked annoyed and with reason. We rarely went out. Maybe once a month and here they were the guys.

"I couldn't stay away from the wife" he said putting his arm around Lauren's shoulders. I looked at Jackson and immediately knew that it had been him who wanted to come here. He shrugged and I smiled while shaking my head.

"We should get a bigger table" said one of the unknown (to me) girls and everyone agreed.

"So" I heard Jackson standing next to me. He'd chosen not to comb his hair apparently "what a coincidence, uh?" he smiled and I laughed loud enough for him to hear above the music.

"Yes, coincidence" I said and went quickly to grab a spot on a booth. I hated those tiny stools they have at bars, "lounge" stools.

"What are you drinking?" Jackson asked me as he sat next to me. I looked at my glass and it was empty. That was fast.

"Blue Lagoon" I said smiling and he went to get me a refill.

"Here" I grabbed it.

"Thank you"

"Would you do me a huge favor?" he asked getting closer to me. I just raised my eyebrows while sipping on my drink. "Dance with me" he said putting one of his hands on my thigh. I was wearing a skater skirt so, yeah, we were skin to skin.

"No way" I said shaking my head while placing my drink on the table.

"C'mon..." he smiled me the I'm challenging you smile.

"you two," said Alexa pointing at the two of us "separate, now!" we both looked at her confused "when you two are together you are in your stupid little world and ignore the rest of us mortals" I laughed

"Actually, Alexa, we were about to go to the dance floor" said Jackson taking my hand and standing up.

"Well, that's taking things to the next level" said Alexa raising an eyebrow. Few people in the table understood what she was trying to say so everyone was wondering if she'd had enough to drink.

"Come" said Jackson and took me to the dance floor.

"Just..." I said as we got there and he began bouncing. He was never a good dancer,neither was I but really, whatever we did in the dance floor was never in the category of dancing. You could call it grinding but I always thought that dry humping was a better term.

"Just what, Mar?" he asked going near me and putting his arm around my waist.

"Just.. don't kiss me Jackson" I pleaded and he put his forehead against mine.

"I'll try" he said and we danced taking that moment as the perfect excuse to have a little physical contact because I knew that our bodies were crying out to be together and we couldn't. We wanted to but I couldn't give away my heart just like that.