UNSPOKEN

9 (Past)

"What about your parents?" I asked between kisses while Jackson had me pressed against the car.

"We are not going to my room" he said grabbing my hand and took me around the house, through the yard and then to the pool. "Pool house, they don't mind If I stay here the nights I come back late" he said fumbling through his keys to find the right one.

Alexa and I had managed to get some fake I.D's so we had gone to some club that apparently was THE place to be on a Friday night. We had worn some "adult" clothes. I thought I looked like a baby whore but Alexa thought I was fantastic. I had worn a really tight green mini dress that barely let me move my legs but apparently made me look older because the bouncer didn't look twice at my fake I.D. he let us in immediately. A few minutes later we bumped into Connor and of course Jackson.

"Hi" he said giving me his beer so I could take a sip.

"Hi" I said and took a sip.

"Want to dance?" he asked and I immediately said yes. After a lot of beers and a lot of dancing we found ourselves against a wall making out and grinding. I was thankful that it was dark because I was sure some of the things we were doing would be frowned upon.

"Want to go to my place?" he asked me and I nodded. I wanted to, I wanted to be alone with him. Lately we've been hanging out but with an entourage. We would bump into each other in the party of the night or we would go out as a group to a bonfire and we were never completely alone. Yes we would always be in our own little world, with our own language and always touching each other, kissing, holding hands, but never alone.

So here we were at his place and struggling to get into the pool house because we were drunk and Jackson couldn't make the key fit the keyhole.

"Let me" I said and kneeled on the floor while trying to fit the key. "Ta-daaa" I said once I made it.

"come here" he said grabbing me by the waist and lifting me up. I squealed and laughed. Jackson closed the door behind us and smiled at me I really want this he tried to say.

"I want it too" I said out loud and he put his hands on each side of my face and kissed me with an intensity that I had never known it was possible. He kept kissing me while backing me up towards the bed and then, suddenly, he stopped and looked me directly in the eyes.

"Are you a virgin, Marion?" he asked really serious.

"Yes" I said without hesitation.

"Do you really want this?" he asked while stroking my cheek with his thumb.

"I do" I said with complete confidence and he nodded.

I can't say it was the most amazing thing that had ever happened to me because, let's be honest, your first time is always weird and scary and exciting and emotional but I can say with all certainty that it was the night I fell in love with Jackson. He was completely patient and thoughtful. It hurt like hell and he was always waiting for me to adjust to everything that was going on. I have to admit that looking back at the moment, it couldn't have been better, he was everything every first time should be.

"Did you know that you wear your heart on your skin?" he asked me a few hours later while laying in bed. He was running his finger through my arm.

"What do you mean?" I asked confused.

"All your feelings are reflected in the color of your skin" he said smiling "see, there it goes again" I knew I was blushing. He kissed me. "thank you" he said against my lips.

"For what?" I asked.

"For letting me be the one" he smiled and smiled back you might be the only one.