UNSPOKEN

11 (Past)

I knew Jackson was a good guy when I realized that he didn't tell any of his friends that we had slept together. Alexa hadn't said a thing since I'd gotten to her place for one of Connor's famous barbecues. If Connor knew he would've told Alexa and I would've heard about it at some point. So, here we were at the barbecue; Jackson was outside talking to some guys that were flipping burgers and having beers while I watched him from afar in the house. He felt my eyes on him and looked at me and smiled. I grinned.

"Obviously you two doing that creepy thing" said Alexa giving me a beer and I took it.

"It's not creepy" I said as I kept seeing him being him among guys.

"It could be extremely romantic if I wasn't so envious of it" said Alexa shrugging and I laughed. Jackson turned to look at me again and gave me that smile Can't wait to get you alone. I bit my bottom lip and felt a shiver down my spine.

"You slept with him," said Alexa and I didn't say a thing. It wasn't that I didn't want her to know, I just wanted it to be something between Jackson and I for a little longer. Something only we knew.

"Oh my God!" she said shaking her head "You are not a virgin anymore," I looked at her and grinned

"nope" I said giving a sip of my beer.

"You are in love." said Alexa and I didn't say a thing. I was, I was completely in love but I didn't want to say it out loud. What Jackson and I had wasn't acknowledged by any of us. We still called each other friends, we never made plans together, we'd decided that we'd see each other in social occasions or unplanned visits. Everything had been decided in an unspoken way much like our secret conversations. I guess we knew there was no point on labeling us when he was leaving when the summer was over. To be honest, I was terrified of that moment but I had also decided that I was going to live the time I had with him to the fullest and worry about his absence once he was gone.

"Were you safe?" I heard Alexa's voice and just nodded. "Good, you don't want to end up pregnant and have a kid running after you." She visibly shuddered and went outside.

I went to get another beer when I felt a pair of hands around my waist and I knew it was Jackson so I just smiled. "Alexa knows" I said still not turning around to look at him.

"Is that bad?" he asked kissing my neck. I was about to combust in the spot.

"No, not really," I said finally turning around looking at him.

"We don't need to define what we have to know that it's especial. You know that, right?" he said looking me in the eye. I nodded. I knew, I was as sure of us as I was of the fact that all I wanted to do for the rest of my life was bake.

"Good," he kissed me quickly on the lips and grabbed me by the hand "come outside" he said.

"Too sunny, I burn easily." I said shrugging "you go."

"I'll bring you back a burger" he smiled and I nodded. Jackson was perfect for me. We were perfect together and my heart knew it. It was a bittersweet agony.