The Dobre Way

Chapter 10

(I am so sorry I haven't updated in like forever, I will try to update more often)

⚠⚠Trigger Warning this chapter involves self harm⚠⚠

It has been a dew weeks since the  Brttiny incident. "Hey babe" Lucas said to me. I grunted back because I was just looking at the ceiling, thinking about what Brittney said. "Savanna What us wrong? I know you, why are you acting so weird?" I started to tear up, so I turned to the wall. "Nothing is wrong, I just havent gotten enough sleep lately." I said. "You sure?" He asked with worry in his voice "Yep"I replied. With that he left the room. What he didnt know was that I started cutting again, I just did it on my upper thighs, and shoulders, so he and Haley would not notice. I started crying, but I soon stopped. I got out my box cutter, rolled my pants and shirt up, and started applying pressure, a lot of pressure "stupid amputee, stupid hair, stupid face, stupid body, everything about me is stupid, I am so ugly, I have no curves, and I am a fucking amputee" I whispered those words to myself as I made more cuts, each one deeper than the next. I held my sobs in. I started cutting what was left of my leg, my door busted open. It was Lucas. I quickly rolled my pants and shirt down. He closed the door behind him with a shocked face on. "What are you doing?" He whispered. "What are you doing?!" he yelled. Luckily Haley and Marcus were not home. Tears started streaming down my face. He stormed over to me and pulled up my sleeves and my shorts. "W-why?" He asked trying to look into my eyes, but I looked away to the wall. "TELL ME!" H yelled. "YOU WANNA KNOW WHY! IT IS BECAUSE BRITTINY IS RIGHT, I AM JUST A STUPID FUCKING AMPUTEE, WHO IS UGLY, AND HAS A UGLY BODY, SO WHY AM I EVEN ON THIS EARTH!"Why do you care?" I whispered the last part breaking into tears.  I got up to run downstairs but my prosthetic leg got caught so I fell, but before I hit the ground Lucas caught me. I couldn't look him in. the eye. He grabbed my chin and kissed me. I ached for more but I pulled away, and said "I should go home bye" I walked out with my tear stained face "wait, Savanna. Stay here tonight" he pleaded "Lucas, dont you see. I am worthless what do you even see in me?" I asked finally looking in his eyes. He finally saw how broke I was. He started stuttering. So I just laughed and ran out the door. I didnt even go home that night. I checked myself into a hotel. Lucas must have told Haley and Marcus because they were all calling me. I only answered a call from Marcus to shout "leave me the fuck alone!"

To be continued....