The story of my everyday life

07-01-17

Saturday, 7:27pm

I had a conflict today. Actually everyday.

I am suppose to be used to this things,

But I guess I am still at the stage of moving.

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Tonight, when I was eating dinner,

My mom rule me to go to church tomorrow.

I know I'll be bad to their eyes if i say no.

This time I could finally speak up.

It's not that I don't want to be blessed.

I'm just In a time of processing on things.

My religion is different from yours.

I'm not catholic.

But I cannot say my religion here.

So back to the topic,

I hate it or I don't understand it if people are forcing me nor other to go to church.

My point here is not about lazyness nor not believing in god.

I already told you that I'm in the process of things.

I'm still figurating out everything if I'm doing tbe right thing.

But I got conclusion to my mind.

Why would people force someone to praise god if that someone is not even has full faith or not sure to everything?

In my religion we call something that is like 'attendance' to make sure that you're present on that time.

I don't know anymore if some of those people who go to our church are really go for god.

Or they are just afraid to be remove on our church.

Because in our church, if you are not going to church every day of church day,

You'll be remove and be gone to our religion.

There's a rule in ours that you cannot say anything good to that someone who been removed from church.

But what if they are just also like me?

They are still part of processing everything.

Because we're human. We cannot predict everything.

And as a human, I have a rule to myself.

Don't believe on what you see and what you hear unless they are not being said by humans also.

Be mad at me if you want,

But you cannot change the fact that I am not fully,

Believe in god.

I am still confuse.

I don't just believe everything I see and hear by a human also like me.

Cause we're just the same.

I'm just a human too.

A human that is not perfect.

A human that has an imaginary mind.

A human that could lie.

A human that is known by a great imagination and creativity.

Albert Einstein is also a human.

Same as other scientist.

They are also humans.

They can lie.

Imperfect.

Imaginative.

Intelligent.

Don't be scared of knowing things people.

Try finding things by yourself

Not by what a HUMAN was being said.

Because it could be true,

Or False.

Believe on things that a human is not involve.

Because we HUMANS have limitations.