quiet [h.s]

three

my thoughts are quickly interrupted when he speaks up, "you found your friend?" harry asks me. i don't know how or why, but he gives me a special feeling and i didn't have it before, but seeing him here, shaking my hand and talking to me, it all fits. i really don't know why he now gives me this feeling, but he does.

"yeah" i just answer, not getting anything else out of my mouth and i don't want too, i'm probably never seeing him again.

zayn sits down and i sit next to him and the girl dani. it looks like dani and troy are dating, but they both give me a subtle smile and i smile back. they're all watching bad neighbours and i find myself laughing a few times throughout the movie. some people talk a lot, some chatting about the scenes, i stay quiet. i asked to turn the volume down a bit about ten minutes during the movie,  and without any questions, they did it. gladly.

the movie ended and people slowly left the room, leaving me, zayn, harry and niall. "why don't we play a game?" niall asks, and i'm really not in the mood.. a game? it always ends hurting someone or with someone naked. "i think i'm gonna go to my friend, thank you for the movie and everything" i thank zayn, and i can feel his eyes on me.

i can feel him staring, i can feel harry's eyes watching me. i stand up and adjust my top and was about to walk away, "are you sure you'll find your friend?" i hear zayn say and i nod. "i can always drive you home, ya know?" zayn says and i blush a little, zayn wants to drive me home. i was about to respond when harry says, "i can drive her too, i'm heading home, and i guess you have to stay here zayn, since it's your party."

zayn nods and i just stand there, am i letting this beautifully, perfect, green-eyed boy drive me home? "okay, i guess." i tell harry. there's no way i'm gonna find sam again, she probably went home with jake anyways. harry and i go downstairs and he leads me to his car, which is a jeep and i tell my address.

"i don't live far from you, actually" he chuckles and i can see a dimple on his face. oh my. "oh" i answer, i don't even realise it comes out like a disappointment. "oh really, i mean" i excuse myself.

he nods and furrows his brows, focussing on the road. he's wearing a white shirt with a red and white plaid and it looks so good on him, on other guys it would've looked like shit. we're nearing my house and it's quiet. just how i like.

"it's here." i say and point to my house. "it's a beautiful home," he tells me "do you live with your parents?" my heart drops. whenever people ask this i just, i shut down.

i step out of the car, slam the door shut and go inside without looking back. i hear harry call my name a few times and it sounds so beautiful when he says it but i just can't answer that question. in my heart i still live with both of my parents, i'll always do. even though that my mom is dead and my dad lost his live in a car crash when i was 12, i still live with them in my opinion.

i lock my door and go upstairs. i check my phone and i have no messages. tomorrow i have to work, on a fucking sunday. i check the time and it's 1:12am, and quickly i fall asleep.

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sunday, july 8th

"..the numbers don't add up. somebody must have stolen $70, it is a closed case." i tell my boss and he looks worried at me, "well $70 isn't gonna close our business right?" i know he doesn't wanna know who it is because we're so low on staff and nobody wants to work here since it's a hard job with lots of working and a low paycheck. "no. but if they take more money, it will." he nods and leaves the room.

i've had a bad day today, starting off with no breakfast and slowly realising it's the beginning of the month and i still haven't received my paycheck. i hate to ask my boss since i already know we have trouble when it comes to money, but i need my paycheck, otherwise i won't be able to buy my food.

i asked him and he basically told me he can pay me tomorrow but that he won't be able to pay me next month, since the diner is probably gonna close, forever.

i smile when cindy, one of the waitresses walks in my working room, i won't call it an office because it's really not like that, it's just a room with a table with a laptop and calculator on, that's it.

"hi laury, you want a drive home?" she asks me, and i nod because my car is at the garage and i really have to walk in the pouring rain. "can you wait 15min? i'm off work then." i tell her and she agrees.

when i finish, we both head home and i thank her for dropping me off. she has such a different life than mine, she's a year younger than me and she goes out every friday and saturday night and doesn't give a single fuck. i wanna be her.

when i come home i check my phone and see that i got a text,

sam:)
you got home safe? i went home with jake got so much gossip to tell you mh and oh a guy named hery or somethin asked for your number yesterday night, he asked zayn but he didnt have it so zayn told him to ask me, can i give it to him? i wanna know who he is tho, a secret lover? xo

i look at my phone, shocked. harry asked for my number? why.. i'm not used to people asking my number, since i'm always quiet and on my own.

me
uh ill tell you another time ok? you can give my number, and behave with jake alright, don't get hurt

a few minutes later i get another text,

unknown
hi i got the great gatsby movie at home, if u want, u can come over and watch it, see how shitty it is comparing to the book. h x

it's obviously harry, but.. is he asking me on a date? and he remembered i was reading that book when we first met. it's kinda cute tho. i don't even know if i should accept the offer, it's kinda straight forward and i don't know him and once he'll know me he'll run off just like the others.. i mentally cuss at myself for never taking a risk. there is a boy who is amazingly beautiful and asking me on a date, i guess, i should accept.

me
harry right? uh idk is it a date? i can come over now, but i dont know where you live

harry
its whatever you call it, babe. i can always come over to you with the movie, if u want x

me
okay, in an hour good?

harry
sure babe.

i'm blushing a little, he just called me babe, twice. i decide to clean my place a little and order a pizza. i don't know what to do, i never went on a date, never had a boy come to my house. now i am 21 and doing it for the first time. fuck.

i change from my work clothes into a tight red dress. maybe i'm going too fast. i'm dressing up for this dude i don't even know. but on the other hand, i've only seen him once and he gave me such an odd feeling, he made me feel like never before. he made me feel special.

i call sam and explain her everything and ask her what i should do, she tells me to just go with the 'flow' and enjoy the attention i'm getting. she tells me i have been in a sad place for too long and that it might help me to open up a little. doubting it, i keep on the red dress.

the bell rings and i head over to the door, taking a breath and opening it. there, stands a boy. tall and beautiful. he's wearing a black shirt with black jeans and i never felt like this, my breath is literally taken away. he looks at me, piercing his eyes through me and i feel for the first time ever an odd feeling.

he makes me wanna talk on for hours and hours. he doesn't make me go quiet.