The Frat Bad Boy (Ashton Irwin) on hold

chapter 2 'big suprise'

Jessica's pov

i'm still in my room unpacking and it's been two hours....that's how much stuff i have. i'm on my last suitcase which will leave me with two more box's then i am completely finished. i've pinned my schedule, the upcoming event list and the map up on my little board that i've hung on one of my walls so i can see it everyday, it also has my 10 step plan on it. i take out a bunch of clothes and hold them in my arms as i walk over to my walk in closet. i start hanging up all of them, one by one. once i finish with that bunch of clothes i walk back into my bedroom/ living room. once i open one of the boxes and pick out a decoration for my door i walk over to the door and start attempting to hammer a nail into the door. i quickly stop hammering when i hear two girls outside talking, i know i shouldn't listen to their conversation but i cant help it.

"ow my god, did you see that hot new guy" i'm going to name this girl, girl one for now.

"yes! he is so hot, i have him in my English class" this one shall be known as girl two. i wonder who they're on about?

"ow my god, i'm so jealous. i don't have him in any of my classes" i'm about to lose interest until i hear girl two speak.

"yeah his name is Jackson" ow no...please don't tell me it's that jackson. i quickly pull open the door earning two weird looks from the girls. i walk up to them.

"i'm really sorry, i didn't mean to listen to your conversation but what's his last name?" they look at me in confusion before one of the girls speak up.

"his name is Jackson Silverline" ow.my.god. no no no. this can not be happening. i can feel myself getting emotional and angry at the same time. i slowly nod at them.

"o-ok thanks" i barely manage to choke out, i run back to my room before they can answer me. how could he! he knows i wanted to go to this university and he just happens to choose this one after complaining for so long about how far away it is! he did this on purpose. i look around my room and feel the anger building up even more. the next thing i know i'm throwing anything i can get my hands on, across the room, smashing things left, right and centre. flashbacks keep running through my mind, of the day we first got together, the day i gave him everything and the day he took everything and left me broken inside for so long.

i gave up basically everything for Jackson, he was basically a boy i feel in love with in high school, i loved him so much and i thought he loved me as well, we were the perfect couple, i lost my virginity to him then a few months before graduation i go round his house to surprise him because i had just come back from a touring of university's and i found him in bed with my old best friend. i immediately run out of his house crying, ignoring the pleads to come back and let him explain, when i got home my brother found me in my room cutting my arms and crying, he stopped me and asked me what was wrong, i told him then he went to his house and beat the shit out of him. i haven't seen or spoken to him since then.

i'm brought out of the flash back when i hear my door opening then closing. who the hell is that? i turn around but soon wish i had not, what the hell is he doing here? he looks around my room in shock then his eyes land on me. how the hell did he find me? i take a step back when he takes one towards me.

(pic of Jackson on the side>>>>)

"g-get o-out" i clench my fists into tight balls and glare at him.

"no Jess, i need to speak to you" how fucking dare he! i feel all of the sad emotions leave my body and replace with anger.

"NO JACKSON! you don't get to just waltz into my room and act like you never fucking did anything! you broke me! i gave you everything i could but that still wasn't enough for you! i thought you loved me!" i scream at him, i have no idea where this new found sense of confidence has come from but i like it. he looks taken back by my sudden outburst. he steps forwards again but this time more cautiously. this time instead of backing away i stand my ground.

"i am so sorry Jess, i never planned for it to happen, i never wanted it to happen if you let me explain then you will understand please just give me five minutes to explain" it actually looks like he's about to cry, shit please don't cry, please don't cry. i can never say no to him when he's like this. i guess it wouldn't hurt to hear his story, it might be funny. i glare at him but slowly nod and make my way over to the sofa and sit on one end of it. Jackson goes to sit next to my but i glare at him and he quickly gets the message then sits on the other end of the sofa.

"yes i slept with Emma but i didn't want to. she blackmailed me Jess and trust me it was something you wouldn't want to get out, you know the summer right before senior year started?" i nod and reply.

"yeah what about it?" he sighs before running his hands through his hair.

"it was the summer you started to cut yourself because of all the family troubles and you started to do drugs and everything, me and your family was the only ones who knew right?" why the fuck is he bringing this up! what does this have to do with anything. i swallow down the lump in my throat but nod. "i don't know how, or who told her but Emma found out about it all, she threatened to tell everyone at school about it but i begged her not to i said i would do anything..." is it weird that i'm not surprised that Emma did that, she was always a total conniving bitch. "she...she said that she had always liked me and if i didn't want her to say anything then i would have to...have to sleep with her" of course, it all makes sense now... when i found them Emma looked happy, she kept smirking at me and teasing me after that. "i didn't want her to do anything to hurt you, i didn't want that to get out and ruin your life. i was hesitant but when she was about to send a text to everyone at our school i had to stop her and i...agreed. i didn't want to Jess and when you saw i felt like the biggest jerk alive, i never wanted to hurt you, i still love you Jess and i always have" i know i shouldn't forgive him but what he just said all adds up now, i know he's telling me the truth. he only slept with her to protect me...

i was just about to speak but i get cut off by my door swinging open to show Mike. he has a big grin on his face but it soon disappears when he see's Jackson. we both jump off of the sofa. i go to explain but its to late, Mike's already across the room and tackles Jackson to the ground and starts repeatedly punching him in the face. i run over to them and grab Mike's arm and pull him off of Jackson. Mike looks at me with a confused expression but it turns angry again, he pulls his arm away from me but doesn't move.

"what the fuck is he doing here Jess!" i flinch at how loud his voice is but i ignore him for a second and turn to Jackson who's already standing but has blood dripping from his face and a black eye.

"Jackson i think you need to leave" i give him a look that says 'we'll talk later' he quickly nods before walking out of the room. i slowly turn back to Mike, dreading the expression on his face. as soon as i look at him my heart breaks. all i see is disappointment and anger.

"did you forget what he did to you Jess" surprisingly his voice is calm and tame.

"no, no of course not but please i need to explain something to you" he sighs but nods and sits down on the sofa, i join him and sit down as well before explaining everything to him...

once i finish explaining there's no longer the disappointment in his eyes but its confusion now.

"wait so he only slept with Emma to stop her from telling everyone." i slowly nod then look down at my lap. i feel guilty for not letting him explain before. "i don;t know Jess, you know i never liked him, i still don't even if it wasn't his fault"

"i know Mikey, i'm not sure either. i think i just need to talk to him and sort things out"

"yeah i guess so, ow and the reason I'm still here is because dad's letting me stay for a week until school starts again, if that's alright with you"

"Yeah that's fine Mikey, it should be fun" little did I know this week was going to be far from fun...