We reached the train station a few minuets before 3:15. Quietly we all hopped onto it and hid as one of the men checked inside. Luckily he didn't see us and went on, not long after that the train started chugging along. Pony laid himself on Johnnys lap and fell asleep, unsurprisingly. He had gone through a lot, I mean, he almost died for cripes sake. I leaned myself up against the wall of the cart and sighed. I ran a hand through my long hair -if it's short let's just pretend for now, sorry-. I felt like I was going to cry, but tears never came, I guess I was all cried out. The ride was quiet besides the rattling of the cart. Neither Johnny or I wanted to talk, not right now anyway. The rumbling of the train was sort of calming as we went off to the country.
--timeskippy--
We rolled onto the ground harshly, which hurt by the way. Pony and I stood up and Johnny sat in the ground rubbing his legs,
"Man Pony, you put my legs to sleep, I barley made it off the train." Pony looked at him guiltily.
"Why didn't you wake me up then?"
"Shoot I didn't want to wake you up until I had to" Johnny answered tiredly. I rubbed my eyes and spoke,
"Where is this Jay Mountain anyways?" The boys and I glanced all around and saw nothing.
"Go on and ask the first person you see where Jay Mountain is uh Pony?" Ponyboy looked unsure, he sure didn't look like he belonged here, all slouchy and brooding. I stopped paying attention though as I thought about home. I felt like I was missing something important and then it hit me. I was pulled back to reality and looked around. Pony was gone and Johnny was trying to stand with his sore legs.
"Johnny?" I asked nervously, I was already beating myself up over killing a guy, but I knew it was going to get much worse.
"What is it?" He replied stretching a bit.
"I-i don't have my medicine." He looked at me worriedly. I was pissed that I was in this situation and then I realized something else.
"Shit" I said wide eyed.
"What?" Johnny amd I turned and saw Pony standing looking confused.
"I forgot to take my medicine yesterday too." Pony went rigid before speaking.
"We can worry about that at the church come on." He said and started walking, as did we. When we arrived at the top of the hill there was an old beaten up church, I kind of liked it, or would have if I didn't have to hide out inside for God knows how long. We opened the door and entered, and as we did I brushed cobwebs out of my face.
As I looked around I heard someone hit the floor hard, probably not the smartest idea since it's concrete in here. A feeling of emptiness washed over me suddenly, which I knew would happen soon seeing as how I don't have my medication. I heaved a sigh and turned around to see both boys alseep on the floor and I smiled sadly. I can't believe I killed somebody. I walked over to a wall close to Ponyboy and Johnny and sat down gently. I buried my face into my knees and soon realized that I was crying.
What a pathetic girl, always crying. Weak.
I clamped my hands over my ears, the voice was back again. I tried to go to sleep, but I couldn't and I knew very well that I'd would crash later. I heard rustling hours later and saw Johnny getting up.
