I saw you sitting there,
With a smile on your face and your hands in her hair.
Your smile was beautiful,
Finally you found something that might make you feel full.
She's confident and smart,
And this is what stole your heart.
You imagined my reaction and thought about how I'd express,
Thinking keeping it hidden would be best.
So you ran to take time off,
From then on I knew I was no longer on top.
I found a new look,
And filled my new-found lonely days with art and books.
My hair is with cancer kids And I drew with blue twigs on my eye lids.
I surrounded myself with orange, blue, red,
But this time I had no pink.
I had some weird itch I couldn't scratch,
And oddly enough, the twitch in my eye came back.
This dug too deep,
Ive avoided the truth for four long weeks.
Unfortunately my eyes can not escape the truth,
Here and now, I have my final proof.
I struggle to hold my heart from breaking,
And to clean up the mess I've been making.
Here with the impossible i stand,
Watching my fragile heart shatter in your hands
I lay here with tear-stained cheeks,
Screaming into my pillow until my lungs grow weak.
There is no cure for the aching I've been feeling,
And some nights I can barely keep on breathing
