Fate

Truly Myself part 1

Chapter 4: Truly Myself part 1

Run! Don't look back. Don't let them get you!

"GREEN!!! Come back!" I heard on the breeze. The leaves are rustling in the breeze. Then sun is setting as I run. Water is running down my face. My hair is pushed against my face; my crown is barely staying on my head. I don't stop. I need to get away... away from... my life. If you can call it a life. Playing roles, parts, whatever you want to call it.

For my parents, it was the charming, intelligent boy; my friends, an outgoing, funny, talented performer... On my own, a depressed, loving person... I can't deal with it anymore. I somewhat know who I am inside but... but...

"AHHHH!!!!"

I wipe my eyes off for one second and I trip. Seriously!?! Talk about stereotypical.

When I was running, my right shoe hit an uprooted root from a near by tree. I open my eyes and see the radiant skies. Filled with orange, yellows and pinks. I can see clouds starting to form in the sky. It looks like rain. I continue to cry softly now. My crown lies several feet away. I don't even try to get up. I just lay there. I close my eyes and continue crying. After a while, I fall asleep with tears still pouring down my face.

"Are you okay!?!"

My eyes open suddenly. I look and see a boy with red eyes above me.

"Ye...Yes..." I reply.

I immediately start to tear up again.

"Do you want some help up?" He asks sweetly.

"What?" I ask sadly.

"Well, you are lying on the ground and from the looks of it, you must be Prince Green. Am I correct to guess that?" He asks.

I start to cry a little harder. I close my eyes and put my hands over my eyes.

He jumps. "Hey! Wait a minute! Did I say something wrong?" He cries out in guilt.

"Prince..." I say softly.

"What?" The boy asks.

I say a little louder, "Prince..."

"What?" He asks this again. This time I know he heard me."

"Prince... Knowing that you are a stranger and yet... you know who I am... only sadness my heart to know people only know one of my... my... ACTS!!!" I start crying even harder know. It's like a waterfall of tears.

He asks confused, "You are not a prince?"

"No! I am but all people know are my acts. Acts of a prince, of a intelligent boy, an excellent musician... They are all... acts... Separate parts of me to an extreme... Never once in my life have I been... my true self at once..."

"Oh... I'm sorry... I didn't mean to upset you..." He says sorrowfully.

I reply slowly as I calm down. "Don't be... It is stupid... Why should someone like me care about something so small? I have everything I could possibly want and..." The boy interrupts me.

"But you don't..." He says trying to comfort me.

I look into his eyes and see he really mean that. I stop crying and sigh.

"Now... Do you want help up?" He asks. He sticks out his hand. I look at it and slowly take it. He pulls me up.

"Thank... thank you." I stay still depressed. I take a step with my right leg and a shooting pain goes shooting up my leg. I start to fall but the boy catches me.

"Hehe... Sorry. I guess I hurt my leg on my initial fall." I say trying to laugh a little. He nods and sits me down on a bench. He roles up my pants leg to show several scratches and cuts. He takes out a handkerchief and ties it around the small wound. I watch intently as he does this. Once he is done, he goes over to my crown and picks it up. He lifts it to his eye level and looks at it. After a minute, he starts to walk back to me. When he reaches me, he gently puts the crown back on my silky hair. I bow my head a little as he does this. When he removes his hands from the crown, I look back up at him.

"Tha... thank you..." I say with a weak smile.

"This really bothers you doesn't it?" 

I reply, "More than you... no... anyone would understand..."

I stand up and start to walk away (with a tiny limp). The boy follows me.  I sigh and look back at him.

"Look at me,

I will never pass for a perfect prince.

Or a perfect son.

Can it be,

I'm not meant to play this part?

Now I see,

That if I were truly to be myself.

I would break my family's heart."

I continue walk into a clearing. A beautiful lake, shinning with the setting sun graces the landscape as if it is a picture. I walk up to the river side. The boy stops several feet behind me, still listening.

"Who is that boy I see?

Staring straight,

Back at me?

Why is my reflection someone

I don't know?"

I turn away from the lake and close my eyes. Tears start to pour from my lashes as I sing.

"Somehow I cannot hide

Who I am,

Though I've tried.

When will my reflection show,

Who I am inside?

When will my reflection show,

Who I am inside?"

The boy walks up to me and puts his arms on my shoulders. I open my eyes and see is red eyes looking back at me. Water of remain on my bottom lashes.

"Your highness... it's alright... You will always be yourself no matter what act you put on... Remember that..." He says sweetly.

"Really?" I ask.

"Yes. Don't hide yourself anymore. Not for anybody, not for your parents, not for your friends, not from... me..."

"Okay... I promise..." I say uplifted.

After a while, we continue walking through the park as the sun goes down... Is this the beginning to something lovely? Who knows?

-A/N-

For some reason the link to the video I wanted to use wasn't being accepted so I put it in external links. If you already have seen Mulan then you should know the song. If not, it is simply a beautiful song and you must hear it. Thanks for reading.

Read more: Disney - Reflection Lyrics | MetroLyrics