The old and the new

Christmas without you..

{ this is very old and emotional. Read at your own risk}

You're not with me this year

But you're spending Christmas in the sky

With all the stars

I woke up this morning and went to call you,

then realized

that you're gone.

I looked at the necklace around my neck with your ashes in it and said "merry Christmas"

I didn't cry because I knew you're happy and safe.

Your son woke me and mom up this morning after I went back to sleep.

We were opening presents and I felt you next to me.

You touched my shoulder from behind.

I looked back

but you weren't there.

After all the gifts were open dad was making a fire.

And the stockings were hung up.

I looked at yours

and smiled

then memories started flashing back

a tear rolled down my cheek

then before I know it...

I'm in my room crying so much.

I feel you with me.

I felt your hand touch my face and wipe my tears

I looked up.

And you still

weren't there.