Forget It! Just Let Me Love You || J.W

I Don't Understand

I was now in my room looking at the ceiling. What's happening to me?
I don't even know my own feelings.

Yoona: Mina?

Mina: Hm?

Yoona: Are you okay?

She came in my room and sat on my chair. I lightly smiled and looked at her.

Mina: *sigh* nothing... I just miss Hyungwon.

Yoona: I miss him too.

Then Jiwook cried so she went to comfort him. I got up and sat on my bed.

Mina: Ah.... I don't work today.

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I went to the kitchen and made breakfast for me and Yoona. Mom and dad is at the company and they won't be home until late.

Yoona put Jiwook in his walker and came to the kitchen to help me cook.

Yoona: What are you making?

Me: I think I'll make some pancakes.

Yoona: alright, I'll cut some strawberries then.

She went to the fridge to get the strawberries as I mixed the batter of pancakes.

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After breakfast, I went into my room.
The thought of them kept playing on my head. I thought of Jooheon...

~Flashback~

He cupped my face and kissed me but I didn't kiss back, I didn't know how I felt about this kiss. He broke the kiss and looked at me with sad eyes.

I didn't look at him, I kept my head low. He held my wrist in one hand and my chin with the other. He lightly held my chin up so I can look at him.

Jooheon: Please...

Me: I'm sorry...

I said as I looked into his eyes, I cried.
I cried because I didn't know what to do. I didn't understand my heart.
I took my hand from his and stepped back away from him.

Me: I'm sorry.....

I turned around and walk to my room, I was frustrated with myself.

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Someone knocked on my door cutting my thoughts away.

Momo: Mina...

I looked up to the familiar voice.
I was so happy to see Momo again.
I got up and hugged her and she hugged back immediately.

Momo: How's my best friend?

Me: I'm fine, really.

I smiled to her and she smiled back and put her hands on my shoulders.

Momo: I haven't hung out with you in a while, Let's go.