Forget It! Just Let Me Love You || J.W

Only For Ten Seconds

I got off work and after checking up on Jackson, I went home to rest.

Yoona: Here, drink this.

Yoona gave me a cup of tea to calm me down a bit.
I smiled and closed my eyes after taking a sip, just what I needed.

Yoona: How's Jackson doing?

Me: He's doing better. In fact he'd be discharge tomorrow.

Yoona: That's good to hear. Alright! get ready.

She stood up and went to her room.
I turned to her and smiled as I asked where are we going.

Yoona: Momo's coming over.
And we are going shopping~~

She sung out happily and went up to her room. Yas! I really need to spend time with my girls and relieve all my stress.

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Momo: Minnnaaaa~~

Me: Mommoooo~~

Yoona: Hahaha you guys saw each other yesterday.

Momo and I just smiled at Yoona as we side hug. She smiled at us and strolled Ji Wook in the mall as we followed after.

Yoona: Where are you going?

Me: Getting food...

Yoona: Hahaha of course, that's your first stop when you come here.

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Mr. Park: How are you feeling?

I heard Mr. Park and turn my head towards him from the window. He came to me and crossed his arms and lightly smiled to me.

I lightly smiled back and then I got teary. I looked away and closed my eyes as the tears just kept building and building up. Mr. Park gave me some tissues and grabbed a chair to sit next to my bed.

Mr. Park: It's not your fault.

Words couldn't come out.
No words could be spoken at the moment. All I could do at this moment is cry and cry and cry.

Everything is my fault.
I couldn't protect Hyungwon and now I couldn't protect Youngjae.

Me: I....

It was so hard for me to speak.
All it is, is sobs and tears that is doing the explaining.

Me: If I just... Never got Youngjae involved in the first place.... if I just didn't go at all...

Mr. Park: Jackson... Don't think about it too much.

Me: I was just living my life with joy and excitement. I really had the life I wanted. Life was so amazing.

New tears drops as old tears are dried and wiped away. My throat just couldn't bring words out clearly.

Me: I... I lost Hyungwon and then I lost my job and everything was just so hard. I couldn't go a day without stress. I disappointed my parents, everyone looked down on me and I couldn't go out in public without feeling guilty.