Forget It! Just Let Me Love You || J.W

Why Didn't I Die?

I look at his picture and just cried.
I cried and cried and cried.
I wanted things to go to the way it was.

Me: I don't know what to do...
I don't know how I'll do this.
Hyungwon... why did you go?..
Why does it have to be you?

I cleaned the dust off this picture and his stone. I neatly put the flowers in the vase.

Me: Mom and dad are going crazy!
They want me to kill him... me!
Why me?! Why don't those...
Bangtan dudes do it? In fact, mom is not this type of person. Why would she- I mean, of course... You're gone and she's really upset so of course she wants him gone too but-.. okay but the point is... *sigh*... I don't want to kill him. I really, truly, passionately, don't! I don't! Is it because I know him already? I never wanted to kill him.. trust me.. killing is not my thing haha... ugh!! I don't even know how to hold a gun!! Okay, okay I'm being dramatic. I remember you taught me when we went hunting- okay I'm getting off topic!!!
*sigh*....... I just don't know what to do with my life anymore without you.

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I got myself ready, wearing a nice suit and holding a banquet of flowers in my hands. Looking at myself in the mirror once again before I
Stepped out.

There, I stood in front of her house.
Taking a big breath as I try to make myself look presentable and confident. I rung the doorbell and wait as I try to put the best smile I can on.

Mrs. Chae: Oh Jooheon-ah, annyeonghaseyo.

Me: Annyeonghaseyo Mrs. Chae.
Is Mina here?

Mrs. Chae: I'm sorry, she's not here at this moment.

Me: Ah... Well... can I come in please? I have something to tell you and Mr. Chae.

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I stopped at a fast food restaurant on my way home from Hyungwons grave. I was so hungry since I didn't have my breakfast. Then after I ate, I went home.

I got my keys out and opened the door. I went into my room and sat at my desk to check my schedule for next week.

Then I heard a knock and allowed them in. Both my parents came into my room, weird because they barely come into my room and because they are smiling and it doesn't look good.

Dad: Darling... Your mother and I would like to speak to you for a bit.

Me: Okay? What is it?

My mom came to me and held onto my hands. I was so lost at the moment because this is so weird... my dad was just sitting on my bed.

Mom: Sweetie, your father and I really don't want you to be angry with us but this is something that we want you to do.

Me: Yeah I know! You want me to kill-

Mom: No dear... this time it's not about that.

Dad: Honey, sweetie, look....

Honey? Sweetie? Umm...
Am I in trouble?
They are acting so weird...
What did they eat? Drink? Do?
Is mom pregnant? Are they getting a divorce? What? What?

Dad: Your mother and I really, truly, passionately know that this is good for you. We want this for you because you can get a lot of help in the future.

Me: Umm... What's going on?

Mom: Would you please not be angry at us?

Me: I-I mean... I can't promise that but.... okay?...

Dad: We decided that you and Jooheon will officially get married!

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Me: No! We talked about this! I don't want to marry him!!

I said as I grabbed my bag and my keys, ready to head out the door, out of this house.

Mom: Honey, he was only gone for three days... just give him another chance.

Me: Do you not understand any of this? Do you not know what's happening? Do you even care about me?

Dad: We do! This is why we want this for you.

Me: Do you guys not care about how I feel? Okay!maybe I was naive and totally thought I was truly in love with him the month I was with him but then as I kept thinking deeper.
I ONLY LIKE HIM AS A FRIEND!!!

Mom: Oh but dear, you'll learn to love him.

Me: Love?! *scoff* I don't even love him!! How can I marry someone I don't love?! In fact, how can you guys put me through this? First you want me to kill Jackson which I totally do not want to do at all and now you want me to marry someone I truly have no feelings for?! *scoff*

Mom: Look! We already signed the papers, we already got the date done. You are marrying him.
End of discussion!

Me: Do you guys even care about how I feel?

Dad: Honey, of course we do.

I just looked at my parents in disappointment. I was so angry that I could cry. Why are they doing this to me? Just.... UGH!!

Me: If he's a man we would have come to me and tell me himself but even so.... I still won't accept it.

With that, I opened the door and shut it. I got into my car and I drove off.
With anger filled in me, my blood was boiling lava, my head was just everywhere!

Why is this happening?
Why do they want me to marry him so much? My Asian eyes are open, okay! I just don't see him like that!

Me: Calm down Mina... calm down before you crash yourself.

I drove and drove and drove until I got to one of the most beautiful places ever. One of my most favorite place to go to. Where Hyungwon would take me all the time when I'm feeling down or we just come hang around here.

I can see all the lights of the city...
It's truly beautiful. I love it.
But I can't help but cry.....
I'm going through so much that I'm just so stressed out!

Why didn't I die in that accident?

Annyeonghaseyo JAEreaders♡

Sooo... how was it?
Looks like the marriage is official again (;

*sigh* I truly don't know where this story is going lol. I'm just writing.
I apologize if this is not a good story.

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