Captured (ImmortalFox) ((Under heavy editing))

Making my decision

Eddie sat up and put his hands in his hair and messed it up he had been thinking about what he should do for hours and he kept switching from staying to leaving and it was frustrating the hell out of Eddie he didn't like being so confused, Eddie kept thinking about if he stayed what happened if Aleksandr got angry one night, would he take his anger out on Eddie? There was so many things that Eddie was scared about if he stayed with Aleksandr like him seeming to have bipolar one minute he's happy and the next minute he wants to murder someone and that was another question which went through his head would Aleksandr keep on murdering or would he stop it because Eddie didn't know if he could live with someone who was a murderer, if Aleksandr was willing to stop killing Eddie would be able to get that out of his head and Eddie knew if he said I'll stop that it would lead him more down the road to staying with Aleksandr because if he said yes Eddie could help him through whatever urges he got but then again that bought up the question what would he do when Aleksandr had the craving to kill he couldn't let the man go insane he would have to do something to help him and he just didn't know how he could help a psychopath get over the urges he's probably had for years, it was like trying to get a smoker to stop smoking they still had the urges for months after they stopped to pick up a cigarette again and he was sure it'd be the same with Aleksandr that he would get the urges to kill even months after he was clean. And Eddie also thought about would he be able to go his friends if he dated Aleksandr and go 'hey this is my boyfriend who totally didn't kidnap me and torture me.' And he had told Seamus that he had gone to see his mother in Puerto Rico because she was ill so Seamus would know he was laying.

Eddie groaned and laid back on the floor, all the things going through his head was maddening why he couldn't have a simple life was beyond him, he had to get kidnapped and start to like his kidnapper it was like out of one of those retarded romance novels that tried to romanticise a killer into being a good person who just shad a troubled past and that was exactly what Aleksandr was! When Eddie had read a book like that he had always laughed and thought 'this is so stupid that the victim is thinking about actually being with a man who had tried to kill them.' But now here he was in was of the stupid stories and Eddie knew it was only supposed to happen in the world of books so he didn't understand why it had to happen to him because it shouldn't even be a real thing.

Eddie ended up just giving up and falling asleep on the floor, he had given himself a headache from thinking so much and his body just couldn't cope with so much stress being put on him in such a small amount of time he hadn't been this stressed since he was in high school doing his finals.

When Eddie woke up he saw some food and a bottle of water on the small table near his bed he hadn't thought about how hungry he was but when he saw the food his stomach rumbled loudly telling him to eat so Eddie got up, sat on his bed, grabbed the food and started to eat it he was still thinking about what  he should say to Aleksandr because he was sure Aleksandr was ripping his hair out in fear about what Eddie was going to say and he was right.

Aleksandr had been going crazy for hours now he wanted to know what Eddie was going to do but he couldn't rush him so Aleksandr had spent hours just walking around the house trying to get something occupy his mind so he could stop thinking about this for at least a few seconds but nothing was getting his attention not even playing videos games was helping him so Aleksandr ended up making Eddie  some food and walking down to the basement where he saw Eddie asleep so he just left him and put his food on the table and walked out. Aleksandr knew if he wanted Eddie's true answer he needed to wait for him to make an decision and he couldn't be any part of that decision Aleksandr just hoped the decision he made wasn't to leave him because that would make him go crazy he had never felt this feeling before band now he was feeling it he didn't want to lose it.

Eddie was sat on the bed still thinking about what he should do because even this little act of kindness giving him food was pushing Eddie more to the side of staying with Aleksandr but he needed to know if Aleksandr would stop killing people for him because if he wouldn't Eddie couldn't be with him and he also wanted some freedom like being able to go see his friends and upload youtube videos again. He didn't want to be a slave to Aleksandr he wanted to be able to walk the streets and he knew that was going to be nerve racking for Aleksandr but he needed to be able to have some of this freedom or he'd go mad.