Kill Or Be Killed (H2OVANOSS)

Chapter 53: I just want to be loved

It was night and Evan lays in bed by himself in his room. His chest facing the wall next to him and he curls himself under the soft blankets. Stress  was getting to him from the lack of sleep his been having. He shuts himself away from people and all he ever does is worry and work. He feels like crying but his eyes can no longer produce tears to cry so all he does is cry silently without tears. Alone and in fear in a room that he has himself locked away in. A chamber full of nightmares; that or a hell would be perfect words that could perfectly describe this. Evan was losing his mind, himself, his purpose.

Just like anyone around him, everyone was either releasing stress or were in deep shit just like him.

Luke had finally gone insane a few days ago, anything triggers him. He breaks down in seconds and then forgets he ever cried. Ryan has been trying to help him and it almost seems like Ryan is the only one that can control him and they thank him everyday for it.

Evan makes up his mind to turn of his light and close his eyes even if he was wide awake. He doesn't say a word and after 30 minutes of just him looking around while his eyes where shut, he finally falls asleep with someone still in his mind. Making sure to drag that person inside his dream world.

And sure enough it worked.

-In the dream.

Evan finally wakes up and then, as soon as he opened his eyes he sees messy short brown hair, he looks further down and sees Jonathan curlded onto him, something in his heart flutters and it's makes him happy. He brings Jonathan closer and Jonathan hums. "Morning....." He mumbles.

Evan flinched and looked back down, "sorry did I wake you up?"

"No not really it was just my lungs failing to get more oxygen into them because of you're pecs"

Evan finally noticed he was not wearing a shirt and he laughs, "Sorry were my pecs in the way?"

"Very much so~"

Jon uses his elbows to pick himself up and he smiles peaking Evan on the lips, "you woke up early this time"

"Mmm..." was all he could say. "We can go back as sleep if you want or we can....."

Jon suddenly gets on top of Evan and drags a finger thru his chest down his happy trail.

Evan sheavers but then he was suddenly out of breathe. Jonathan bounced on his stomach taking away all of his air, "or we can have pancakes" he said cheerfully. "Wow. What a cocktease~"

"Come on in hungry!"

"Fine but watch Jonathan, just watch"

He winks at Evan and slides off of him and gets out of bed and into the restroom. "Out of my way, I gotta piss" he mumbles to the door making Evan chuckle.

It was times like this that where Evan was truly happy.

"Pancakes or waffles?" Jonathan said after he got out of the restroom.

"Pancakes, with eggs and bacon please...." Evan mumbles at him jokingly but to his surprise, all Jon does is, "coming right up hon, I'll call you when they're done"

Evan watched him bounce around the room and out the door. Evan gets up and goes inside the restroom. Washes his face, does his business and brushes his teeth.

He looks at himself in the mirror and noticed a scar going across his forehead which made him wonder how he got it but ignore the fact that he had it.

"EVAN! COME DOWN HERE PLEASE!" Jonathan screams and Evan suddenly runs down stairs as fast as he could. The hallways got longer for him and suddenly everything was shaking.

"Jonathan! JONATHAN!"

-

"JONATHAN!" Evan screams and he jolts up. Brock let's go of his friend and stares at him in shock. Evan breathes heavily and he looks around to notice that Brock was staring at him in pure shock.

"Jonathan...." he breathed softly and he touches his lips at the thought of his lips on his.

"Are you okay?"

"Yea just....just had a dream...."

"Another nightmare?" Brock asked.

"No...this one was different...."

"Well come on, we need you to get dress to give us orders."

Evan frowns, "What time is it?"

"Its gonna turn 2, you had Brian and Tyler worried sick"

"Wow so late....it only felt like 20 minutes..."

Brock pulls him out of bed and order him to get ready.

Evan nods and Brock waits outside for him to come out.

They both walk out and into another area were everyone was waiting for them.

"Tomorrow....we get both Jonathan and the commander back"

People cheered and evan waits for them to be done until he can continue. "We are winning this fight and we are also ending it, so be prepared, this might be the largest battle of today's era"

"One of the longest ones too" Brock said and Evan nods. "Correct so give it you're all out there; give you're heart's and body's to his country and the rest of humanity because it won't be an easy battle and I won't lie to you that a lot of us might not make it, but you're sacrifice will not go in vain. Trust me, I won't let that happen"