Softly crying
Myself to sleep
Each and every
Night I eat
I feel better
If I go without eating
I need to starve
If I want hope
If I ever want to be beautiful
It's a lie
That it only matters
What's on the inside
Each night I sleep
I feel so obese
I get up
And l exersize my butt off
Will I ever be beautiful
I think with my head
Over the toilet
With a blade in my hand
I draw my blood
I'll leave you all in peace
I say while I'm softly crying
No-one cared about
All those tears
That constantly
Ran down my face
No-body knew
What I was going through
I was the girl
Who would work
To make sure everyone
Was happy
Before wording about myself
As I look back at all
Those memories
I'm wondering what
People thought of me
Was I a person they liked
Or the one they loathed
I think about this as I'm
Softly crying
