As I look back on our past
remember all the fun
smile as I think
about that one week in heaven
sort of like a vacation
from all the problems we have
that one week of nothing
yet everything too
we became sisters
after the first day
you were forcing me to eat
and threatening to stab me with a fork
we hoarded food
in our oversized pants
cereal at midnight anyone
that was us
we had so much laughter
throwing shoes at each-other
and that random bra dance party
at three o clock sharp
getting yelled at by miss Tammy
getting threatened
to be sent back to the picu
staying awake till one
then waking you up at 4:43
just because I felt sick
you didn't yell at me
but instead comforted me
all the staff was confused
at why we were up so early
jumping on beds
and breaking them too
you comforted me
when I came back from visitation
crying my eyes out
I showed and slept through group that night
because seeing my friends was too much
I was crying in the shower
and you tried to make me laugh
phone calls the next day
I talked to my friend again
I made you talk to her
because we are triplets
you two have the same birthdays
and I’m just the rebel
who was born a little late
all the balls we threw
Fred and Fred Sr. and Jr.
it was all so fun
I think as I look back on those days
trying to talk to you
as often as I can
trying to keep those care free days
as close to me as I can
for a week
only focused on recovery
dreading going back home
knowing the situations aren't the best
but all we wanted to do
was to hurt ourselves
and of course get high
I went home and messaged you
complaining about the lack of a razor
you tell me your pregnant I flip out
you told me he asked you THE question
I feel so happy for you
just you know I'm coming to your wedding
you are after all my sister
a girl who could make me
smile and laugh
under any circumstance
told me it would be okay
when I was being accused of being on drugs
and you know how hard it is to get clean
and I am
or at least was
sad to say
but once I left
I went home and got high
but I’m going to make that journey
the journey to get clean
I know it is long
and anything but easy
but I know it is worth it
just remember this
you can always talk to me
about anything whatsoever
