Dark Hatred, To Myself |•EDITING•| (ErenxReader AU)

13' Clemency

(Y/N) p.o.v.
You got up and wanted to go home. Levi however stayed down and flicked a pebble to the side.

"I'm getting the feeling that you don't want to talk about him."

You slouched against the tree bark and pulled your arms inside your black pull over. It wasn't that you didn't want to talk about him. You just didn't know how to talk about him.

"So...you dragged me here, to talk about Eren?"

Levi gets up and looks over at you.

"I never dragged you. You came along. Tch, if you don't care then let's go."

You nudged him on his side with the weight of your body and he sighed. You knew that if you didn't make him speak now, the curiosity would slowly consume you later. Levi reverted his gaze to a lavender.

"He's jealous."

Those two words startled you to the core. It echoed endlessly in your head.

"He asked if we were together. It was actually funny to see him bewildered for the moment when I said sure," Levi paused to clear his throat and then continued "Although I've never liked the guy, I think he actually has a thing for you."

You weren't even paying attention to what Levi was saying anymore. Eren was jealous, but why would he be? He was perfectly fine, he was always bothering you with everything Mikasa wanted. All because he wanted to be included. He was a typical seeker of popularity. That was why you hated him so much for. Ever since you all entered 6th grade he started siding with the people who gained more attention.

Mikasa, was sweet and hanged out with you, as well as Armin. However it all changed when you all entered middle school and it got worse in high school. It's as if popularity just, consumed them.

"Tch, are you even paying attention?" Levi's stern voice pushed you back to your senses.

"Uhm yeah.." you replied softly.

He exhaled deeply and started walking out of the place. You followed. The conversation was clearly over but you wanted to do something. Suddenly all these feelings screamed at you. You felt as if you couldn't breathe. Eren, the guy you've liked for so long actually liked you! For once you felt as if the butterflies in your stomach weren't just flying but they were crashing and exploding.

Levi abruptly interrupted your thoughts as he gripped your arm tightly.

"The fuck are you dreaming about? Tch, you almost fell off to your death."

You looked down to realize that you were on the edge of the few boulders that leaned on the hills which led to the hiking trail. You looked over at him and didn't know what you said next.

"Be my boyfriend. I want Eren to squirm in his jealousy, I want him to feel the pain that I get every damn day I see his face."

Levi p.o.v.
I helped (Y/N) get away from the edge while she spoke the words that left me speechless. I didn't even recognize who she was the second she said it.

"What the fuck are you saying (Y/N)?"

I could tell that even she didn't know. She slightly shook her head and chuckled.

The walk back to the town was quiet and a bit awkward. The whole time I thought about it. I don't want to hurt her, and I'm sure that if I were to pose as her boyfriend it would be a complete failure. I understood why she had a sudden outburst but me as her boyfriend was too far. She was important to me, but not that way.

However, I also see why she sees it as a great way to get even more attention from Eren. I just don't think it's the right way to go. It's not that I care about Eren being his usual idiotic self, but I care about (Y/N) and what may happen if we were to do this. I don't want to see her even more hurt.