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jimin approached me today..

he apologized for our breakup and said he was stupid to let me go.

i told him it didn't matter anymore,,

that i'm over it.

that's when he brought you up.

he apologized for my loss and said those iconic words of; "i can't imagine how hard it must be."

i just looked at him and said; "no, you can't."

then i just walked away.

i was so angry i ended up crying in the bathroom..

i had skipped my last two periods,, and just walked home.

i've been trying so hard to stay clean..

but i slipped today.

i have five new cuts along my arm,, they're not deep enough to do any harm but..

they're there.

i feel as if i'm letting you down,,

like you're mad at me or something.

but i don't want you to feel that way,,

so i struggle to keep my arms and legs cut free.

the night i found out you had died i cut your name into my arm..

and for a week i re-traced it...

the marks are still there.

i felt as if writing your name would bring you back,,

like this was just some bad dream.

but of course it wasn't..