Reunited™

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of course i remember that day at the lake. i never forgot anything we ever did. or anything that happened.

i remember the fight too,, and how badly it hurt to hear you yell at me.

i remember when i first got with jimin,, the broken expression on your face.

i remember last summer..

i was so heartbroken over jimin i didn't care for your presence..

i should've though.

i should've embraced you and every moment we shared,, but i thought we had time...

i guess i was wrong.

looking back on everything now,, i realize that you were the only person in the world who could make me genuinely happy.

you made me smile,, and laugh.

you gave me hope,, you gave me faith,, you gave me love.

i began to feel depressed the summer before last,, ya know the one before jimin.

my family was falling apart,, my friends became intolerable.

i didn't want to leave my room.

i didn't want to eat.

i just wanted to sleep..

but then summer came and i went to your house.

you hugged me and didn't let go for a while. you said you were so happy to see me.

i enjoyed that.

the next day we went to the mall,,
and you held my hand the entire time.

i always slept in the shirt you had bought me that day,, the one that matched yours.

but after your funeral your mom let me keep some things,, so now i wear your shirt..

it still smells like you.

it was weird going into your room without you in there waiting for me.

it felt wrong in a way,, like i shouldn't have been in there.

but i stayed there for a while.

i laid down on your bed and just closed my eyes.

memories were racing back to me at all different speeds.

i should've told you when i had the chance...