Feelings

Challenge # 18

Dirty Violet

Rigor's

"She's something, Son..."

Didn't know what my father meant with that but I realized that he was talking about Violet the moment I saw him looking at her. Dumalaw siya sa Villa nang araw na iyon. The third task will be next week and he wanted to make sure if I am ready. We both have no idea what's coming for me next week but every damn time he looks at me and sees me, wala siyang ibang sinasabi kundi ang dapat akong manalo and I am trying my best to win. I need to win.

Winning means making my father proud. It's what he wants.

"Yes, Father. She is something. One feisty, unique woman. I have made the right decision." I said. My father started sipping his red wine. Ako naman ay nakatingin kay Violet na nasa may pool habang kausap si Niana. Niana, is teaching her Italian. Hindi ko nga alam kung matutuwa ba ako. Hindi ko na kasi pwedeng lokohin sa Violet kapag nakaintindi na siya ng Italian. She's a fast learner. She'll know what everyone is saying about her. Hindi ko na siya pwedeng sabihan nang compliment nang hindi niya ako naiintindihan. She'll know how much I admire her beauty, her wit and her guts.

She'll know everything going inside my mind. But do I really mind? I guess not.

"VI, you have to win this." My father aid again. Hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang beses na ba niyang sinabi iyon sa akin ngayong araw na ito. Wala pang isang oras ang pag-uusap naming dalawa pero mas maraming beses niya pang nasabi iyon kaysa sa itanong sa akin kung kamusta na ako. I grinned at him.

"I can never promise you anything." I told him. He shook his head.

"I know that, Rigor but a man can only hope. But you have to win or else you just prove to me that Henry is indeed a much better son that you can ever be."

And that hit a spot. Matapos iyon ay umalis na siya. Hindi naman ako sumunod, ni hindi ako nagsalita. I just let him leava at nang maiwan ako ng nag-iisa ay saka lang ako nakahinga nang maluwag. I had always known that Henry is a much better son, walang kaso sa akin iyon. Mabait talaga ang kapatid ko – kahit sa akin, kahit sobrang gago ako ay napakabait niya pa rin. Lumaki kaing malapit sa isa't isa at kahit na siya ang harapang paborito ni Ama ay hindi naman ako nakaramdam ng galit sa kanya. Ang akin lang, mahal rin ako ni Ama pero mas mahal nga lang niya ang kapatid ko and for me, that is fine.

Kaya kahit paano ay naiintindihan ko si Violet. I know that her father loves her, siguro may mga bagay lang talagang hindi sila pinagkakaintindihan. I sighed again. Lumapit ako sa glass window kung saan natatanaw kong maigi si Violet. She was busy reading something on her phone, maybe she was talking to someone. Napatingin siya sa akin tapos ay kumaway siya. I waved back.

I just don't know how can a little creature like her can be this mesmerizing. She's too pretty. Ilang beses na kaming nagtabi sa pagtulog kahit na y resistance sa una dahil naniniwala siyang hindi ako marunong maligo nang maayos ay napapaamo ko siya. Nakakatawa kung iisipin, para bang nasasanay na siya sa akin. And I guess, in her case, with all the OC-ness she has, malaking bagay na iyon...

Nakita kong lumalapit na siya sa akin. Maya-maya ay naroon na siya sa living room. She as holding her phone – maybe she was talking to someone, maybe her mom. Kung minsan ay nabanggit niya sa akin na madalas daw niyang tawagan ang Mamay niya dahil kasalukuyang umalis ito sa kanilang bahay. I became worried too but Violet sai that it's gonna be okay.

"Have you talked to your mom?"

"Yes. She's with Red. Namamasyal sila. She knows I'm with you and she was asking me about you pero hindi ako masyadong nagbigay ng details. Isa lang naman ang sigurado sa ngayon, gusto ka daw niyang makilala."