My Big Mouth Caused Us

Memories

      Walking into the classroom,37 minutes late i can feel all the eyes on me. Well this is what i get for coming in late but it was worth it i think i made the bad boy feel better by putting him in his place and telling him why i did it.  Wow i'm a goody-too-shoes. That reminds me i didn't get his name. Oh well it can't be hard to figure out the bad boys name.

  "Miss. Smith, nice of you to join us and this is the first and last time your going to be late,ok?" I guess she's gonna let me pass this one time only because its my first day. "sorry miss i understand i had um...things to do." i responded and she replied me with a nod and i take it she thinks the things i had to do was dealing with my past which that wasn't the case but she took it anyways. 

"ok class this is Elizabeth Smith and is now part of this school family so treat her as your best friend thank you." she said before starting the lesson.

"OK welcome to your first day back at school from you hope fully fun and joyful vacation. Andand key word is "back at school" and  "from vacation". Your no longer on vacation so get out of that mode.
         That's when I blank out. To think. Something I have been doing lately.
       My father, such a loving man. For his wife and 2 kids. But he had things to do. He had a duty. One not written in paper but one written in his heart. To protect his family.
        My heart, soul, life, destiny, everything is to protect my family.
He always told us that. I loved my father. I still do and breaks everyday that he's not here to share our memories. I remember our play fights and how in the car we used to sing along to mucic. I was always an old soul. I love 80s music. Some 90s and and little 60&70s. I miss him. A lot and so does everyone.
        I lick my lips to at least add some moisture and I taste salt substance. That's when I realize I'm crying.

      Quickly wiping my tears I try to cover up my little mishap. As in tried. Elizabeth you may go to the bathroom. Quickly getting up I rush to the bathroom and try to wash away the hurt.  Tried. Something I've been doing a lot.
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       Sorry for the long wait. Its short yes but I need to get my thoughts on track and I felt this chapter helped me.