The Pawn's Mask (On-Going)

Seven

"Galit pa rin yata sya.."

Flashback moments ago..

Bob's POV:

Medyo kinakabahan ako...

Pero sige, chat ko na sya.

"Hi, Bunsong Beb! Pwede ba tayong magchat? Gusto ko lang naman magsorry sa ginawa ko. Gusto ko sanang ishare sayo yung side ko kung bakit ko ginawa yun."

Bunso Beb ang tawag ko sa kay Vivian, tapos Kuya Bob naman ang tawag nya saken. Sibling relationship kung maitatawag namin dito kahit di kami talaga magkadugo.

After ko magchat sa kanya, di pa rin ako nawawalan ng pag-asa na magrereply sya kahit alam ko na ang mangyayari.

Kaso ayun nga...

Seen, 1:56 p.m.

Pero, kinulit ko pa rin sya para magreply. Nagchat pa ako ulit.

"Seen mode. Mukhang galit pa yata. Sorry na."

Tapos seen na naman after ng pangalawang chat ko.

Pero, matapos ang ilang segundo. Nagtatype sya. Umabot ng between 5-10 minutes...grabe ang chatbox ko...still typing pa din. Mukhang nobela ang sasabihin sa akin nito. Puro real talk yan, for sure. Kahit kinakabahan, hinanda ko pa rin ang sarili ko sa magiging reply nya.

At eto na nga...mahaba ang reply nya. Nag-inhale ako ng malalim then exhale..para mawala yung kaba ko.

Then, basa...

kuya bob,

i think i should have done this a long time ago. i thought of texting you, i thought of giving you a letter, but most of all i thought of talking to in private. i don't really wanted everything to come this far, what i only wanted is to make you realize some things which i know you are numb about. i really never wanted to double, triple or in whatever degree, heighten or intensify what you are going through especially your damaged feelings. but i think things should really go this way, the hard way. for now, i just can't talk to you. i wanted you to think about things, this way i don't want you to think that i am cleaning my name, what i want you to see is you also have done something wrong. i do know, as your friend, i also did some things that had hurt your feelings, but i also know that i'm taking my part as your friend in whatever way i can, but not this time. i know your thinking that i am the worst friend you've ever had in your entire life, and i'm whole heartedly accepting that fact. to end this message, i just wanted you to know that i do care what had happen to you. i just don't know how will i approach you the way "vivian", you first know, could. soon in God's time I WILL talk to you, i'll just come to you, that's when i'm ready.

PS. i wanted you to recall when is the time i never asked you about any of your unspoken problems. i want you to ask yourself if, in any day or time of your life, i never offered you my time if you needed someone to talking to about anything. i hope this way YOU'LL remember ME as YOUR FRIEND. Thank you.

Your Friend,

Vivian

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