Hurt By Words

A Different Side of You

I can't stop thinking about ThugBoyT. I really need to ask him for his name. It's kind of weird to really like a boy and not know his name. Also, he's my first crush in years. The last time I liked a boy was in third grade. I thought this girl was my friend so I told her my crush. She told everybody in the class who I liked. I can never forget his name, he was the first boy that ever bullied me, Jonathan Wearious.

After he found out about my crush on him he started telling people I liked him but he didn't like me back. He started making songs that hurt my feelings, he would but his chewed up gum on my clothes or hair, he'd push me or hit me, made. fun of my clothes, and other hurtful things. I use to go to the bathroom and cry every single hour. I almost committed suicide. I had the knife to my stomach and was about to stab myself when Damion came and saw me. He took the knife from me and told mom. She removed me from the school but their was no point to that because the bullying continued at the new school also. And ladies and gentleman that is how I got use to being the target.

"Why are you crying? " Tella said snapping me out of my thoughts. I suddenly realized that I was standing in front my locker staring at my books, and crying.

"No reason, let's get to class." I could see she didn't believe me but I was so glad that she let it go.

I walked in to Ms.Wilson class and sat down at my seat.

"You guys are fifteen minutes late. So you have a fifteen minutes detention after school. " She said to Tella and I.

People giggled but I did nothing but open my history textbook and start on my work.

I'm heading to Ms.Wilson's room. Today wasn't that bad no one put their hands on me or threw stuff at me. Just dirty looks and smart comments. Tella couldn't serve her detention because she had to go to a doctors appointment but she has to come to school early for her fifteen minute detention. Ms.Wilson just wouldn't let it go.

I walked in to the class and sat down. I put my head down and started waiting for the fifteen minutes to go by.

"Detention is over. " Ms.Wilson said waking me up.

I gathered my things and started for the door.

"Tiana I have high expectations for you, I hope you starting getting back on track." Ms.Wilson said. 

"I will Ms. Wilson."

I left the school building and went to my car. I opened the door but when I tried to start it, it wouldn't start.

"Dang it." I screamed.

"Nice choice of words. " Davion said. I looked at him and tensed up. I know he apologized and all but I'm still scared of him.

"Chill, I'm not going to hurt you."

I still didn't say anything.

"Come on, I'll give you a ride. I'm really good with cars but I don't have my tools with me so tomorrow after school I'll check it out for you. "

"No, thank you. I'll just walk and ask my brother for the favor."

"Awe C'mon your house is far from here. I'll just give you a ride, now let's go."

I grabbed my things and locked the door. I went to Davion's car and waited until he unlocked the door to get in.

"Are you hungry?" He asked.

I shook my head no.

"OK, let's go get some ice cream."

"But I said I'm not hungry. "

"I heard what you said I'm not deaf."

We pulled up to the ice cream place and he parked the car.

"Get out." Was all he said. He didn't even wait for me and he left to go in the ice cream shop.

"Wow, he's such a gentleman." I said sarcastically.

I walked in the place and sat down.

"What do you want? "

"Cookies and cream." I said.

He went up to the cashier and ordered the ice cream. She was smiling so hard and trying to flirt. I smiled to myself and looked away. Girls and their thirstyness.

Couple minutes later he came back with our ice creams. He sat down and started eating his while texting. He always has a straight look on his face. He doesn't smile much and most of the time he talks so strict. It's obvious that something is bothering him.

"Why are you staring at me?"

"No reason. " Dang it, I didn't realize I was staring at him.

"What you have a crush on me or something?"

I nearly choked to death eating my ice cream.

"What? No! I just realized that you're sad, that's all.

"What makes you think I'm sad?" He said looked straight at me with no expression on his face.

"It's kind of obvious. You just mask your feelings so people won't see how hurt you are. You also talk strict and tough. "

He stared at me for a while. 

"Let's go, I'm taking you home. " He got up to leave.

"But we just got here."

He turned around slowly to look at me. The expression on his face is terrifying.

"You didn't want to come in the first place. So you shouldn't mind leaving. " He threw his ice cream away and walked out the shop.

I kept my ice cream and walked to the car. I opened it and got in.

After about ten minutes of driving we pulled up to my house. I sat still.

"Well, aren't you going to get out?"

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to get in your business. " He turned his head so he wouldn't look at me.

"Aite. " Was all he said. I got out of the car and opened my house door.

"Diany What the hell is wrong with you?! " Damion screamed.

Uh oh. I forgot that I was suppose to go and pick him up from school.

"I'm sorry, my car wouldn't start. someone gave me a ride."

"Ice cream! Is that ice cream in your hand?"

I shook my head yes.

"You got a ride from a nigga, didn't you? Diany let me find out your involved with these little boys out here. I will mess you and them up." He grabbed my ice cream and went upstairs slamming his bedroom door. Oh great, he took my ice cream. I was planning on enjoying it.