[ worth it ] t.s / DISCONTINUED /

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TODDYS POV

It's been days since I last had a conversation with Brydee. We were all currently sitting around in Scotty room just talking about random stuff. I saw Brydee pull out her phone so I grabbed mine aswell. Maybe she will answer my texts now that right here? When I first got back to the house after my little outburst, I had started texting her 'I'm sorry' over and over. She never replied and every single time I felt a jab at my heart. I hardly knew this girl and I was already having her control my emotions...

When her phone sent out a loud PING after I sent the message I saw her cheeks turn a bright shade of red. She fiddled with the volume on her phone and after only seconds after sending the message David was shooting deathly glares at me. I glanced at Brydee helplessly and she gave me a look of pity. I just wanted a to talk to her.

I put away my phone and listen talk about loads of things I couldn't care less about. It took a mere 5 minutes before I was bored out of my mind. 'I'm just going to go to my room... I need to edit...' I mumble excusing myself. The guys all look at me strangely as I get up and walk out of Scottys room and into mine. I sigh in frustration closing my door and I let myself fall carelessly on the bed.

Guilt had been bottling up inside of me for days. I just wanted Brydee to know I cared about her and wanted to help. She already knew I was sorry, I'd told her so many times I've lost count. I want her to know I care. I pulled out my phone and grabbed out headphones plugging them in as beginning to play music. I lay on my bed listening the twenty one pilots and begin to drift off to sleep.

Knock. Knock knock. I hear someone banging on my closed door. I sit up and yell out 'come in' groggily. I rub my eyes and I see David come in, without his camera. 'So you didn't even bring your camera, something must be serious' I say sarcastically shifting my weight attempting to become more comfortable. David just nods his head and rolls his eyes before sitting down at the end of my bed.

'Dude... Have you told anyone about what you saw... With Brydee...' He says quietly and sternly. I shook my head quickly. 'No, no. Of course not! I know that stuff is really personal... And I know she doesn't want me knowing.... I just feel so guilty... I'm sorry David...' I respond looking anywhere but at David. 'Thanks dude... But please don't tell anyone... She will explain everything when she's ready... Stuffs just really hard on her right now...' He says awkwardly getting up off my bed. I nod barely making eye contact with him as he leaves the room.

I sigh again and pull out my phone. I would tweet something cliche or inspirational emotional stuff... But everyone just thinks of me as Toddy, happy happy Toddy. And I wanted to keep it that way.

I hear someone else knock at my door and yell out 'come in' again. I thought it would be Zane or Heath asking me if I want to do something with them... But no. It was Brydee. My face lit up when I see her shyly come into my room. I pat the space next to me eagerly. She walks over and sits down next to me and we awkwardly sit in silence.

'Im really sorry Brydee...' I say finally. She nods and doesn't speak for a few seconds. 'I know you're sorry Toddy...' She replies looking into my eyes. I stare back as if I was in a trance for minutes. Without any warning she reaches out her arms and hugs me. 'Im sorry for not replying... I... I... I just didn't know how to respond!' She says into my shoulder. I wrap my arms around her and hug her back tightly. 'It's okay Brydee... It's fine... I don't mind... Just as long as you don't ignore me... Brydee I just want us to be friends again...' I say truthfully and we lay there just enjoying each others presence.

I may never get this chance again, and wow that scared me.

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BRYDEES POV

When Toddy said he just wanted to be 'friends' again I felt my heart sink a little. I didn't think much of it at first but after a while it began consuming all my thoughts. He's always flirting with me... I thought maybe he like me back... How could I have been so stupid! He flirts with everyone...