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BRYDEES POV

I'll admit it. I felt bad. Since I'd had the panic attacks over at the guys house I'd began to feel bad. It felt like I was lying to Gabbie and Liza, but I wasn't. I'd consider them to be sisters to me, yet they didn't know anything about me. I have become comfortable enough around them and I feel like they should know. I tell David my plans and he encourages me, telling me that they are the most caring and empathetic people ever. So I follow through with my idea.

I find Liza just chilling on the couch editing so I go over and sit next to her. 'Hey Liza, do you wanna have a girls night tonight? Like invite Gabbie over and all that?' I suggest awkwardly. 'Hell yeah! Text Gabbie now!' She squeals looking up from her computer. I give her a grin and start typing out a text to Gabbie.

Me : Yooooo Gabbie do you wanna join me and Liza for a movie night??

After almost 10 minutes of watching random TV shows she replies.

Gabbie : OF COURSE! ILL BRING CHIPS! 💗 & BE OVER AT 7

I tell Liza the good news and head back to my room and begin to play scenarios in my head of how the conversation would go. Sure, there was going to be no dodging the awkwardness throughout certain parts but from what I've learnt about them in the past few weeks of knowing them, they won't be rude about it. David was right, Gabbie and Liza are some of the most caring people you'll ever meet.

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David had left the apartment at 6:30 and it was now almost 7 which meant Gabbie was due any minute. David had told me if I needed him he would be able to come home at anytime, I didn't want to have to contact him, I need to be comfortable with Gabbie and Liza. I hear a knock on our front door and I leap up from the couch and run over. I quickly open the door and see a flustered Gabbie her arms full of chip packets, I giggle and motion for her to come in. She gladly follows inside and dumps the bag on the kitchen counter.

Liza, Gabbie and I opened up a few of the bags of chips and began making pizza at about 8pm. After we had made our homemade pizza and we began to eat it in the living room. I wanted to get the topic over and done with as quickly as possible so I took a deep breath and began.

'Guys... The reason I wanted to do this tonight is because there's something I need to tell you...' I said attempting confidence. Gabbie and Liza look up from their pizzas confused. 'Like I really need to tell you...' I mumbled. By now they had sat up straight and were staring at me carefully. 'So you know how for the first few days I was here I was having panic attacks and stuff... Well I feel like you guys should know why. You should know the full story...'

I spent almost an hour going into depth about everything. From before David left when I was happy, to when Timothy dumped me, about Samantha's accident, Paul's death... And the suicide attempt.

Throughout the whole story I watched their facial expressions change between angry, sympathetic, sad and confused. I cried a few times but I kept myself together for the most part. 'Brydee... It's okay...' Gabbie says as she get up from her seat to come over and give me a hug. Liza eventually joined in and I gave them a weak smile. 'I just felt you guys needed to know... You guys feel like my sisters... Everyone out here feels like my family honestly... No one cared back in Australia...' I said truthfully. Theirs arms clutched me tighter and I let myself melt into the hug.

'That stuff sucks Brydee, but I'm so glad you came out here! It all gets better, I know that sounds cliche and all but trust me... I went through some pretty horrible stuff in the past year...' Gabbie spoke up once we were all back in our movie positions. I nodded slowly and flashed her a warm smile.

Gabbie ends up spending about 30 minutes telling me and Liza and about the issues in her past. I had never known about any of it and I felt kind of bad for never thinking anything about her being sad. All of the people out here all seemed so happy and joyful all the time, but the truth was that there were so many things about so many people that you would never have guessed. When Gabbie finishes talking I jump up and give her a hug copying what she did for me.