Something About Being A Mate... Whaaat?

Chapter Twelve: "Welcome To My Life." Simple Plan.

A/N:

warning; Sympathy chapter.

I was originally going to call this chapter, "This Is My Life" but then I remembered there was a song along those lines I used to be obsessed with. So, the result? Changing the name and using this chapter to express how she feels about everything. More explanation in her words during the chapter.

:) Enjoy, my pretty Bugs and Buglings. <3

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It's been a week now and every day has just been slow and painful. Why?

My best friend won't talk to me, at all. No one will reply to my text messages, just nothing.

"Do you ever feel like breaking down?"

Almost everyone around School is whispering and huddling into all different groups. There's always fights at School, really weird ones, because all of the people that use to be friends are no longer friends and it's creeping me out. I seem to be the only one that just has no one, even Sam has gone.

"Do you ever feel out of place,

Like somehow you just don't belong,

And no one understands you?"

And ever since I told Emily about me possibly becoming a lesbian, She hasn't had tea with me. She seems to have found her own group with her roommates.

There's just nothing left here for me anymore...

"Do you ever wanna run away?"

At this current moment I'm just in my room, laying on my bed with my CD player playing with "Cry Of The Nihilist" by Children Of Bodom. But I still want to do nothing but scream.

"Do you lock yourself in your room,

With the radio on, turned up so loud,

That no one can hear you're screaming?"

I can't do anything right at the moment. I've tried talking to Sam, in person and through text. She just didn't want to hear it...

I went into Sanity a few days in a row to see if Reilly would be working, she wasn't, I even checked twice a day and still no luck. (Stalker-ish, right?) She hasn't replied to any of texts and either has Jesse... Jake? I just haven't bothered. But yet, I saw them all at the Mall once... And guess who they were with? Amanda.