Without you- A Riker Lynch love story.

Without you- A Riker Lynch love story. Chapter twenty.

Authors note:

Hey guys...I'm so so sorry I haven't updated in well...over a year. I've been going through some personal stuff and I just couldn't bring myself to write...but I'm back now! I hope you guys can forgive me and I'll try to update as often as I can. This chapter is probably going to be short as I forgot where I wanted the plot to go so again I'm sorry!

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Rydel's POV:

I watched as Riker traced back and forth between the sofa and the coffee table. He was constantly running a hand through his hair, the other curling and uncurling by his side. I popped a bit of chocolate in my mouth and smiled.

"Calm down dude, you're going to be fine!" I said, hoping to ease his mind a little. He stopped, looked at me and let out a sigh. Coming over, he sat down next to me, taking a handful of chocolate drops.

"But what if this ends everything?" He mumbled, dropping the handful from one hand to the other. "What if she leaves?"

Placing the bowl down, I turned to him. "Stop that. She is not going to leave you. You two have been through too much for her to do that"

Riker nodded, pushing himself back to his feet. After quickly eating the chocolate, he stuffed his hands into his pocket.

"I guess you're right...I think I'm gonna go for a walk." He have me a half smile and left before I could stop him. With a sigh, I decided to do some investigating.

Jess was in our room, that much I knew. She had hardly left it since finding out about the baby. When I pushed the door open, I found her sitting on the floor with her back to the wall. In her hand she was holding the scan.

"Hey J, how you feeling?" I asked gently, crouching next to her. She looked up at me and smiled.

"Better, thanks" I smiled back, feeling myself relax.

"That's great! What are you thinking about, with this?" Gesturing to the picture, I waited for her reply.

"I...I think I want to keep it."

Rikers POV:

The weather was almost perfect today, bright and sunny but with a slight breeze. I could feel myself relaxing as I walked around the block. Someone was having a cook out, the smoke coming up from their back yard. The smell alone made me hungry.

I soon realised I was just walking in one big circle and stopped near a bench. Taking a seat, I stared at nothing in particular. I tried to gather my thoughts, sort them into manageable chunks.

All I could think about was this baby. Did I want it? Scott seemed to cope pretty well and he seemed happy enough. Maybe I could be a good dad to our child...But then again maybe I wouldn't.
I didn't even know if Jess wanted it! She'd been acting strange lately and it was starting to worry me. After everything we had been through, with Hayden and the arguments, I didn't know if this would save us or break us.

I suddenly noticed I was tracing the scars on my wrist and shivered. I could still remember the pain I had felt. The anger. Losing someone you love more than yourself is heartbreaking. Living with that person and seeing them with someone else, destroys you.

I sighed, pulling out my phone. I'd been out for over an hour. There was a single message on my phone, from Jess. Swallowing hard, I opened it.

"We need to talk"
Panic set in me and I stuffed my phone away. Had she made up her mind? Did she want the baby? I didn't know.

All I knew is that I loved Jess and I wasn't letting her go again.