Without you- A Riker Lynch love story.

Without you- Riker Lynch love story. Chapter thirteen

Jess's POV:

It's been two weeks since I had woken up from my coma. They wanted to keep me in for a while to monitor me. They told me the bullet had gone straight through my side. Only just grazing my kidney. I went into a coma from blood loss from when i hit my head. Never the less I was fine now. After dressing my wound they sent me home. Riker was fussing over me constantly. Always checking if I was okay, today was no exception.

"Riker will you Pleaseee sit down? I'm finee!" I said tugging on his sleeve. He had made me sit in bed, not moving so he could care for me. "But y-" I held up my hand to shush him.

"No buts. Sit" I commanded, he did as he was told. "Good" I said kissing his cheek, he smiled and looked at his hands.

"What?" I asked, he shook his head. "No come on, tell me" I nudged him gently. He looked at me for a while then replied. "it's just..it's just that I almost lost you and I didn't know what to do! I ended up doing something stupid! I was so scared I was going to lose you for good!" I was stunned.

"w-what do you mean you've done something stupid?" I said nervously, his eyes flickers to his arm. "no. Not again Riker!" I said as I grabbed his wrist. Pulling the sleeve up I revealed a line of scars, some fresher then others. He yanked his arm back, rolled down his sleeve and looked away.

Riker's POV:

I was ashamed of what I had done. I just didn't know what else to do when I found out she might die. I remembered the first time I did it, when Jess left me for Hayden...

*FLASHBACK*

' I felt weak. Weaker then ever. I didn't want to go on anymore. J had left me, she hated me. What was there worth living for? I went to my bathroom, grabbed my razor and placed it on my wrist. Then I stopped. No I couldn't do this. Placing the razor back on the side I sat on my bed.

Hours later I heard J and Hayden in her room. I couldn't do it anymore. I needed a way out of this life. I carefully unscrewed a sharpener, took the blade and placed it on the same place. Then I slowly moved my hand backwards. Tiny beads of blood appeared. It took all my strength not to cry out. I kept cutting and cutting. Each new slit deeper then before. Eventually I stopped. Blood poured down my wrist, leaving a sickly red trail.'

*END OF FLASHBACK*

"Riker why?" she asked calmly. How could I look her in the eye and say it was because of her? How could I watch as she broke down in tears?

"I was desperate... I don't want to live without you J. I-I thought that if I died, then you would be spared. That somehow things would work... But I couldn't end it. I just couldn't! I wanted to stop but each day you got closer to death,I died a little more inside. I couldn't take the pain Jess... I couldn't" I cried, tears rolling of my cheeks like crazy.

"R-Riker? This was because of m-me?" she stuttered. I nodded slowly.

"Because I love you and can't lose you" I said. Then she cried, she clung to my neck. We stayed there crying for hours. Just us two.

Later that day, I was sitting on the sofa cradling J in my arms. Her side had been hurting so I made her wear a pair of my sweats and a baggy top to keep the pressure off it. Mum was constantly looking over at us, I think she was worried. "Mum? You don't have to keep staring at us... We're fine" I said kindly. She smiled and left, well that was easy.

"J? Jess?" I whispered, she didn't answer. Looking down I noticed she was sleeping, I smiled to myself. "Aww well look at you two" Rocky said sitting on the other sofa. I put a finger to my lips and silently hushed him. "She's sleeping" I said softy, he nodded and helped me up.

"Ill take her to her room" I said as I made my way carefully up the stairs. Nudging the door open I set her down on her bed. "Sleep tight beautiful" I kissed her forehead and left, shutting the door behind me. When I went back downstairs I found Ross sitting in my seat.

"Oi! I take my girlfriend up to bed and you steal my seat" I said nudging him. He swatted me away and laughed. " well you got up bro! And this seat is soooo comfy!" he said stretching out. I tutted and walked out to the kitchen. "Ha I win!" he called out, then without warming I spun round, raced back into the living room and dived on him.

Ross's POV:

"OOF! RIKER GET OFF ME YOU GIANT OATH!" I cried out as he landed on me. The wind was knocked out of me, and a throbbing pain started in my groin. "Um Riker? He's gone red" I heard Rocky say. Riker got off me, I curled up into a ball and fell on the floor. "Shit, Ross are you okay?" Riker asked, concern clear in his voice. I tried to speak but no words came out. Rocky and Riker helped me up onto the sofa again. Then Rydel walked in.

"What happened to Ross?" she asked coming over to us, Riker looked down rubbing the back of his neck. "Umm I dived on him and knocked the wind out of him and um maybe kneed him in the groin?" Rydel tutted and swatted his arm. Then she knelt down in front of me, and smiled.

"Ross, dude your gonna be fine. Just try to breath okay?" I nodded and tried to take a breath. Nothing happened and I started to panic. "Ross, Ross calm down. It's fine! Just breath slowly" Rydel said trying to calm me. I tried and tried but nothing worked, I panicked more. They tried to calm me down, with no success. My hands felt sweaty and my mouth dry. "Shit he's having a panic attack!" Rocky said, suddenly someone's palm collided with my cheek.

"OW JESUS WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU DO THAT?" I shouted, Rocky took a step back and smiled. "You were having a panic attack...and couldn't breathe"

"SO YOU SLAPPED ME?!" I asked.

"Well uh yeah... And it worked" he said smugly. I glared at him, but he was right.

"Hmm I guess your right. Er thanks dude..." he nodded and sat back down. I turned to Riker, who was standing sheepishly next to a fuming Rydel. "Ehem?" I said.

"Sorry for causing you to have a panic attack" he said, I shook my head.

"No. Sibling apology!" I demanded. He sighed but continued.

"I Riker Anthony Lynch, sincerely apologise for causing you, Ross ShoR Lynch to have

a panic attack. I also apologise for diving on you and winding you and kneeing you in the groin." he finished. I nodded and pulled him into a hug. He smiled and hugged me back briefly. then we pulled away and fist bumped. Rydel nodded and left saying her work was done here.

"So who wanted to play hockey? I asked Ratliff to come over for the teams are fair" they both agreed and we went out back to wait for Ell.