Brendon's P.O.V
As I sat in my room, with all the bottles and cans still on the floor, I was texting Dallon because he wanted to hang out, but I'm still sore about this week.
Seeing Ryan was probably the most my heart ever raced in my life. Probably the most then having sex for the first time.
Which says alot.
Dallon ended up calling me. Which I wasn't prepared for.
"What the fuck Brendon? " He said joking "why don't you wanna hang out?"
"I-I don't wanna okay?" I said
"Why not? Is it because of Sarah?"
"No, she's not even here."
"Or the fact that Ryan left you for the 8th year?" He said getting rude.
"I-I" i choked getting mad but sad. Water started getting out my eyes.
"Look Brendon." He said getting serious "he's not coming back, so stop thinking about that shit, he never did love you,it was all a casual affair, your with Sarah now, this isn't 2004 anymore."
He knew I always loved Ryan,even when I started dating Sarah.
He always said that it will never happen and to move on.
I'm surprised he never told Sarah .
"Sarah is one day gonna find out that you still love Ryan even after 13 fucking years." He said
It's was all true...I know that me and Ryan will never be together,but I still love him.
I started loving him 2004, it's 2017.
13 years....fuck.
"Dallon," I said with tears coming down,still. "It's true,I still love him,and Sarah will one day find out, but I can't stop loving him."
He became calm.
"Brendon, your my friend and all, but I'm worried about you" he said "your in a marriage that you probably wanna get out of,and do whatever makes you happy...even if that is with Ryan."
"Okay" I said
"But even if you find Ryan and he rejects you and you still love him, then stop trying." He said "talk to you later."
"Okay, bye." I said as i was about to hang up.
"Wait Brendon. " he said
"Hm?" I said
I didn't want to talk that much because my voice would sound like sadness. But at this part I'm only am sadness.
"Talk to Sarah." He said and ended the call.
I sat there and found a bottle of wine not opened.
I opened it and started drinking it from the bottle.
I ended up taking a nap while the wine spilled out on the covers,and listened to Behind The Sea.
A/N.....
Omg Northern Downpour decided to come on while writing this! :):
Sarah P.O.V
I ended up coming home earlier than expected, I picked up the dogs from daycare and went straight home to see my man.
When I unlocked the front door, I heard music in the bedroom, but it was Ryans voice and Brendon's.
I let the dogs do whatever and went to the bedroom and saw Brendon on the bed with wine, wine bottles were everywhere and cans of beer also.
"Brendon what the fuck?" I said
He woke up and turned of the song.
He's eyes were red. Then I remembered, this week was when Ryan left.
"Is this because of Ryan?!" I said .
I started thinking he didn't love me, he loved Ryan.
"Do you even love me?!" I said with tears coming down to my cheak.
He didn't look at me. It made my heart more broken.
"No, I love you. " he said, it seemed that he choked up on 'love'
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