1 year ago, I was ready to take on the world
6 months ago, I was happy
1 month ago, I saw my sister for the first time in 2 years.
2 hours, 43 minutes later after that month, she died
And right now, I was in the air,
Floating around, ready to die.
Life would be much happier, without me, right?
A month ago,
" Hey, Dawon noona!" I said, cheerfully. " You're finally back from France!"
" Yup. It's been 2 years, right Hoseok?" She said. " I'm so happy to see you!" I nodded.
Dawon noona worked in the Fashion industry, in France. She had just came from home, from her 2 year internship.
" Where's mom and dad?" She asked.
" Mom's on another buisness trip, and so is dad." I said.
" Do you wanna go out for dinner then? Then maybe a movie?" She asked. I nodded.
I just wanted to spend time with her.
After 2 years of separation.
" So noona? Where would you like to go?" I asked.
" It's on me Hoseok. Where do YOU want to go?" She asked. Huge smile on her face.
" No, YOU."
" YOU"
"YOU"
"YOU!"
"YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU,YOU!" I said.
" Okay, seokie, you won! I want korean food, I've been eating a lot of western food for a while." Dawon said. " Let's go to ***."
I walked next to her, holding hands with Dawon noona. When we were little, she would always look after me, when our parents were gone. Usually for buisness trips.
She would read me stories to fall asleep to, with her story-telling voice. She would also draw any game characters I asked her to draw. She would sing in her calming voice, whenever she noticed I felt down. She would encourage me, in my dreams.
" Hoseok, if you want to do it, do it."
"Even if mom and dad hates your dream, do it anyways. Do it for me. "
She was more of a mom to me, than my own mom.
We were laughing and talking.
" Hey, noona? Wanna race?" I asked. She nodded.
" Who ever gets there last, pays." I said. " Okay?"
" Call!" she said.
" 3, 2, 1, GO!" She yelled.
We ran across the busy night of Gwangju.
" Noona! Why are you so slow? Did you get slower since you came back from Fra-?" I said, laughing.
Until I turned around.
2 hours after I met my sister, she died.
All because of me.
My life was empty now.
I looked down, in the leap of the air.
I stopped moving, all of a sudden.
I received a note.
Hoseok, it wasn't your fault that your sister died.
I know you don't want to jump. I know you only want to jump cus you want to see Dawon.
How the f-
" Who are you?! Are you the one who stopped me moving?"
Make a wish.
" What do you mean?! Make a wish?! In the middle of the air?!" I yelled.
yup.
" I don't believe in wishes." I said.
yes you do, and you are making a wish.
" I am not."
you are
" am not"
you are
" am not!"
you are!
" okay fine! what do I wish for?" I said.
anything.
but do it sincerely, and look at the stars.
" seriously? Look at the star-"
just do it
I sighed.
" I wish Dawon noona was still alive. I wish I could've made her happier while I could. I wish I could've not been a failure. I wish, I could become a idol! For Dawon!"
