Your grey t shirt smells like you. So i wear it as i sleep, on the nights that i miss you most. And i imagine your arms around me, telling me that everything's going to be alright. Because it's you and me against the world. It's you and me forever. And I can hear your voice in my head, calling me "babel" my favorite nickname.
And, the longer I imagine, the more I can see. And I can see the day I move in with you, into a tiny shitty apartment, because it's all we can afford. But, it's beautiful. And I can almost smell the blueberry pancakes that I'll make you, as i dance around the kitchen in my underwear with music in the background. I can almost hear myself singing along, pretending as if a spatula is a microphone. And I can hear you laughing at me, wondering how we got so lucky.
I can envision a gorgeous white dress, with white lilies in my hand. As I walk down the aisle. And i look to my left, and see my mother's eyes glistening with tears, with the biggest smile on her face. With my father by my side, walking me down to you. And you are standing there, looking at me, in your black tux and your big brown eyes, wide as can be.
I begin to see gorgeous little payton, with her brunette hair and your brown eyes. I can hear her laughing, as you chase her around the hallway, playing silly games with her. I can imagine Luke, who got my blue eyes, and who's gonna protect his little sister from anyone who tries to break her heart, even though she accidently breaks a few of his toys.
I can imagine their first day of school, when I'm not ready to let them go. And I can almost hear the excitement in their voices when they tell us everything that happened. How they met new friends and learned how to sing their ABC's
I can feel how fast time is going to go, when Payton gets her heart broken for the first time. And when Luke has his first kiss, and he brags about it to all his friends. I can see them going into highschool, and getting in trouble. I can imagine you and I, being the "chill parents" that we're promising to be now. Because I swear to God, I will not become my parents. We'll give our children the freedom they deserve. We'll have a beautiful family full of free souls.
And I can see you and I growing old together, when my skin begins to wrinkle, and I'm no longer the beautiful teenager I am today, But you still call me gorgeous. And I can see your big brown eyes never changing, along with your contagious smile. But, we'll never be so old that we can't have adventures anymore. We'll die before we need Payton and Luke to watch over us, before we need a cane to walk. But, we'll live life to the fullest, and we'll make it so beautiful
I'm certain that we're going to have the most gorgeous future.we'll have everything we want and more. It's you and I against the world.
But it seems so far away, so for now, I'll just lay in your grey t shirt and look forward to our future together, that I can't wait for.
