Castiel's Secret

Chapter 23

As much as Castiel's wished to demand answers from his sister, she had forced him to sit down. He couldn't understand how she was so calm, and that angered him. Did she not feel any remorse? Why hadn't she done more to help his son? By what their brother had told him, she had been at her son's side this whole time. So, why?

Despite being enraged Castiel's had not fought her from sitting him down in a brown run down couch. His hand clutched the angel blade tightly at his side. He watched her cautiously as she sat across from him on the bed. "I'm know your upset with me, Castiel." Faith said with John's rough voice as he crossed his arms against his chest. "But try to understand this, Castiel. I could not have done anything even if I tried," John said with a frown before adding in a much sadden tone, "No one can."

It confused Castiel to hear his sister say that. What did she mean she couldn't do anything? Of course she could. If there was anything he learned over the years is that there is always something. "You just didn't want to try. That's just it! You were with him this whole time, you could have protected him from harm, from this world..." He said as his voice raised an octave with each word.

"I tried! Ok?!" John said raising his voice enough to startle Castiel to silence. When faith noticed Castiel go silent and just stare at her with wide eyes she/he/ sighed, "I tried, but for some reason no matter if I tried to help him when he was hurt or attempted to aid him in his search, I was always prevented from getting too close. It was as if someone didn't want me to intervene with the natural order of his life."

"What?" Castiel asked utterly confused. Did something happen to prevent angels from touching him? No, that couldn't be it, he had hugged his son various times. Before his thoughts could travel any further faith spoke up.

"He's a special child, ever since he was five I've watched him grow up. But in that time I learned that no matter what no one could physically harm him. I never quite understood what it was, but then it just came back to me." He said knowing very well none of it made sense to Castiel. Trying to explain to Castiel everything was difficult, especially when she, herself, had not fully ventured through her thoughts to fully know everything in detail.

Faith noticed Castiel's face scrunch up in confusion but before he could voice his confusion, she cut him off with a raised hand to halt his words. "Please, let me finish. It's hard enough to try to explain it as it is." She said ignoring her brother's pouty face. "Since the birth of humanity we all knew that one day, a very special Nephilim would be born and he would start the apocalypse. Believe it or not, I was not okay with that." She said knowing this would also confuse her brother. How would it not? She had also played a part to prevent Dean and Sam from stopping this apocalypse. "A long time ago, Gabriel and I lead a revolution against the angels mating with the human race. We feared that nephilim's birth, and punished any angel who held a relationship with a human. That is why nephilim became extinct, because we fought to decrease the chance of Lucifer rising." It was difficult to explain when her mind insisted on revisiting the chaos they had caused, when she was the only one holding the burden of the memory on her own. "We all were made sure we knew of its existence. But things got out of hand, and father punished us all. He thought us knowing would make it easier to accept what was to come. He wanted to give Lucifer a second chance, but we knew it would be in vain. We were lucky father didn't condemn us to hell with Lucifer, but we didn't escape from punishment either. Our memories of the events that had transpired were erased."

Whether she was lying or not, it was hard for Castiel to decide. The sadness in her voice was evident in her voice, and he had never heard that before. He had always known his sister to be angry, whenever someone messed with the natural order of things. But hearing she had done something like that was unbelievable. It was true, he held no memory of it but from the sound of it she believed it whole heartedly. There was no possible way to confirm it if no one would have memory of it either.