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by nerfeste

by nerfeste

dear josh,

you're dead.

i am writing to you because i have no way to cope.

josh- how could you? what the hell were you thinking? how could you just die? you left me. you left me all alone. i grew up with you for christs sake, and you were my best friend.

i loved you.

i can't believe it's come to this.

why did you have to die? i know it wasn't your fault. but why couldn't you just stay alive, long enough for the medics to get there? im all alone josh. all alone.

i don't even know what to say to you. i'm just so fucking devastated. you were the only one that helped me. and- and now you're fucking six feet under.

i can't talk to you if you're underground.

i can't go on like this. it's like- i just saw you yesterday.

but yesterday was 2 months ago. and i know "get over it tyler. it's been two months. you shouldn't still be mourning over him. he's gone"

yeah. i fucking know you're gone josh. and it's not fair. why couldn't it have been me?

god. they're right. i should get over you.. but.. it's not that easy.

i've never felt so much pain in my life. i need you.