To hell and back

A 5am poem

I love 5am.... tick tock 5:01 the first bird sings to the sun of first morning light tick tock.... 5:02 the neighbors lights flash on as the parents ready themselves for a hard days work tick tock.... 5:03 the mama bird catches the first worm for her young tick tock.... 5:04 the world is waking up and it's time to start a fresh new day.... tick tock... 5:05 the intrusive thoughts you've been wrestling with all night re enter your brain speaking soft words of quite comfort " it's 5am time to start another dreadful day of nothing but battling the the monster in your head because they no longer hide in the crevices of your bed" you reply with sorrow " you have taken away sleep from me it's been 4 days.... you have taken away life from me I don't do anything but entertain you..... you've taken everything from me so please just let me have my 5am" tick tock 5:06 you turn on the first song in the morning attempting to drown out the screaming in your head tick tock tick tock tick tock 5:30 knock knock guess who the thought is back "when the world wakes up all it's gunna do is tear you down and wear you out why do you love it so much just lay back down turn off the lights and let me comfort you" "no!" You scream " 5am is my time not yours it's the one part of the day where I can be happy and peaceful and listen to the birds to sing before I have to deal with you and reality all over again so please just let me have my 5am!" Tick tock tick tock tick tock 5:55 the thoughts are back again "hello again can't you hear the birds have stopped singing or did you just close your ears?" Tick tock 5:58 " that's right lay back down and cover up shut the blinds and let me comfort you" tick tock 5:59 you rest your head on your pillow and join in the band of demons screaming in your head when the first tear falls you finally say " okay you win I hat 5am"