Evil Masterpiece ❬ Black Hat x Chubby!Artist!Reader ❭ ON HIATUS

5. T A L K

[Being alive doesn't mean you're living. Or something like that. Filling up blank spaces with unnecessary things - material things - doesn't make it any better. What does it mean to be happy anyway?]

"So, what have you been doing before I met you?" Black Hat asked out of blue, looking almost interested. He was sitting on a position that he thought it was superior as much as he is. That's how the villain wanted Y/N to paint him and that is what she was doing.

Yes, Y/N told him earlier that it would be easier if she could just take a picture of him and paint it all alone in her room. But Black Hat said that he wanted her to paint him on the old way, on his office. He is too stubborn so she just gave up and did as he asked.

"Hmm," Y/N murmured looking at him and then she carefully sketched his thin yet long body on a big canvas in front of her. "Nothing too much. I was just giving up on my life."

This answer made Black Hat a bit curious as the villain analysed Y/N's blank expression - so empty yet so meaningful. How can someone say such a thing so calmly? "May I ask why?"

The girl chuckled at his curiosity, which she thought was cute. "Well..." she sighed slowly. "Life isn't quite easy, sir."

He frowned, confused at the answer, and asked mentally if humans are such weak creatures that they can't even live without thinking of giving up.

"What do you mean with it?" though he despised humans and any of their mores, culture and ways, Black Hat wanted to know why such a young woman would think about giving up on life.

"Uh?" Y/N stared at his face, studying if he was just going to make fun of her for talking about her troubles like any other person that she shared her life with (besides her parents). He didn't seem to intent it though. And, well, Black Hat isn't really a person so it would be fine, right?

"Hm... let's say I have... two kinds of diseases," the girl avoided looking at his deep eyes for a moment. When she talks about it she always feel ashamed.

"Diseases?" Black Hat asked low, thoughtfully.

"Yeah... one of them is my old friend depression. It makes me feel really... bad. I can't describe it very well."

Black Hat just nodded, deep in thoughts. He indeed have heard about it before. It's a mental illness that affects the brain.

He also have heard that a lot of people who have this disease feels so down that the only way to numb the pain is alcohol, mutilation, or worse, suicide.

He looked at Y/N again, now feeling something weird. Almost like worry... but it couldn't be possible, not for a villain like Black Hat.

Even though, he internally asked if Y/N have ever tried to kill herself before.

"And the other is cardiomegaly. I've born with it and I kinda have a literally large heart because of it," Y/N laughed sadly and continued to explain.

"It doesn't have any cure and all the treatments didn't work out. The final option was a heart transplant, but... it's been three years since I've been waiting and nothing so far. So I kind of gave up. I'm just waiting my heart to finally stop beating."

"A heart disease?" Black Hat asked trying to disguise his disbelief. He knows that humans needs their hearts to live. "Does it mean you're dying?"

Y/N finally stared at his face and laughed out loud. Black Hat raised an eyebrow, angry, but something deep inside him made him feel pleased by listening to her laughter again.

"Well, yes and no. Every human is dying. But this thing increases the chances of my heart to suddenly stop and then... boom!" the girl played with her hands, trying to simulate an explosion. "This 24 year old woman will die."