He just cant be that bad

.....What the fuck happened......

Since all of that shit went down it has been hell in high water to try to talk to him in any way of the world.I love him but at the same time I absolutely hate him for being like that.  Every time I walk by him its like the sign of death coming around. Do I really scare him that badly or do I just get on his last nerve? I can never find out. I literally dont know what to say at this point. He really needs to grow the fuck up get some balls and level out his emotions. All i can tell him know is to kiss my ass. 

Even though I can talk so much shit about him i still do absolutely love him. He's worth the world to me and i would never let th at go. I love him i just dont know what to do at this point.