He just cant be that bad

Its all said and done

I tried to give him the benefit of the doubt but its just all to much. How can i trust him anymore. Its like that damn he loves me he loves me not bullshit. Im so fucken over that feeling but who hasnt been there. Most nights i fuckn cry myself to sleep knowing that hes such a jackass. I absolutely hate that guy now. He went from being the love of my life to being the biggest mistake in the state of Oklahoma. The only thing worse than him being an asshole is the fact that he couldnt even give me a decent explanation to why in the hell that he left me feeling like shit.  In the long run im done being on love and giving my heart to stupid guys. Especially him and at the end of the day, yeah i still love him but that feeling that was once magical is now mutual and gone. Im sorry to say this but I will never have that feeling again.