BEAUTIFUL BODIES

The Wait

 I lay here in my stone cold bed with my head in the clouds waiting, 

waiting for him to leave my mind that he so effortlessly snuck into,

leaving cuts and scrapes that have no way of healing.

Waiting for all the everlasting memories to vanish into thin air.

So that I no longer feel the pain that runs through my body.

Waiting for him to appear in front of me and say,

"go, move on, forget me, you're free."

But he won't.

He will want me to remember all the months that dance in my past,

 begging for that second chance. 

I roll onto my back as the tears rest in my eyes, 

patiently waiting to fall down the apples of my cheeks.

Laying here creates the urge for me to think longer and harder about how we felt, how I felt.

His touch, his look all fly through my mind in never ending circles,

around and around.

The thought of him sends chills down my spine.

The thought of him being here with me turns me red. 

My head thinks one thing and my heart feels another.

I can't live with him and I can't live without him.

I drift off into a deep dark sleep. 

Dreaming about when life was good and light,

but now it's all heavy and dark,

weighed down by the past and regret that I'm going to feel once I wake up,

but I don't care.

Making him disappear is making making apart of me disappear,

he's apart of me, as I am for him.

The yearn and want between us makes the desire more beautiful and strong. 

Waking up to it feels exhilarating.

So I'll just wait.

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