emotional freakouts and other things like that

Fake friends

Listening to: Fake friends by Sigrid

In all of last year I had two friends, who I actually considered to be my best friends. (Lets call them Rebecka and Charlie) We had a lot of fun and I honestly felt like i could trust them with everything. Then after the summer they both started t.o.t.a.l.l.y. ignoring me, and I had no clue why. I tryed to talk to them, but I didnt feel like being rejected every day so I eventually stopped trying.

I got questions from other people why we stopped being friends and as I didnt have a clue, I told them to ask Rebecka and Charlie instead. One particular conversation kinda struck out to me, cause it came so out of the blue.

Random person 1: What did you do to Rebecka and Charlie?

Me: I honestly havent done anything to them.

Random person 2: You sure? They told me they hate you.

Random person 1: Yeah I heard the same thing.

Me: *doesnt know how to respond*

This also stands out to me because I dont really care if anyone hates me, but I think its unnessecary to tell other people about it. That makes me think that they actually had no reason to hate me, and it also makes me feel like our friendship didnt mean anything to them. It makes it seem like all they want is the attention.

Im pretty okay with the fact that were not friends anymore, and I doubt that we will ever be friends again. The only way this ever bothers me is that it pretty awkward whenever we pass by each other. Or when Im going somewhere with my friends and Rebecka and Charlie say hello to everyone in the group except me. Yeah thats pretty awkward.

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The reason Im writing about things that was a problem a long time ago, is because these are things that Ive wanted to get of my chest for a long time and I feel like writing them down is helping me do that. So when Im done doing that Ill pick up on more recent topics.

byee