Sex // Emilio Martinez

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"Emilioooo babbyyyy you're here." Scarlett's says giggling, smiling from ear to ear

"Yeah I live here Scar. Where have you been I haven't seen you all day. It's 3 in the morning."

"I've been chasing the dragon my love."

"What does that even mean?" Emilio asked groggily lifting himself on one elbow

"Acid baby." Scarlet says throwing her head back laughing

"You took acid?"

"Emilio."

"What?"

"I love you. I love you so much you don't understand." Scarlett says cupping Emilio's cheek in her hand

"Don't say that Scarlett."

"But I do."

"You don't. You're just really fucked up right now Scar you're not in love."

"You don't understand. Acid opens your eyes it opens your mind. I do love you I realized I love you when that little tab of acid hit my tongue. Emilio I love you."

"Go to sleep Scarlett."

"What do you mean go to sleep!? I'm standing here confessing my love for you and you don't even give a fuck Emilio what the fuck!" Scarlett cries falling down to her knees.

"Yo take this somewhere else we're trying to sleep here man." Ivan says turning around covering his face with his blanket.

"Why are you crying Scarlett come on let's go downstairs." Emilio says leading Scarlett out of the room

"You can't keep doing this Scarlett."

"What do you even mean!?" Scarlett sobs

"Coming here all fucked up like this. It's everyday, you're drunk or you're high or you're tripping on acid, you need to stop it's not good for you and you're hurting me I can't see you like this."

"You don't know what I've been through. You have no idea Emilio. He broke me Emilio I'm so confused I don't even know how to deal with this or what to do where to go. It hurts so bad and I have no one."

"Scarlett what are you talking about?"

TRIGGER WARNING(sexual abuse)

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"Two months ago I was raped. He was the third boy to break my heart. He completely shattered me."

"Oh god. Did you report it?" Emilio says concerned

"Yeah. But cops, cops don't care about rape."

"What happened?"

"The guy, his name is Cam. He's one of the worst human beings on this earth. One day he'd tell me he liked me and then go get a lap dance from some bitch or he'd invite me to a party and then flirt with other girls right in front of me. He was violent and just a overall a rough person. Every time we were together he'd leave me with a reminder of him it was like his little mind games. Wether it be bruises, hickeys, hell even a chipped tooth. Just something that would make me remember him the next day. Anyway I stopped talking to him after all that for months and then one day I'm at a party and my friend who isn't my friend anymore because she's just as big of a piece of shit as Cam is but anyway she invited him to the party. We didn't even talk until I was throwing up in the bathroom and he came in and said to me that I should go lay down. So I go lay down and he does too. He gets on top of me I push him off he gets on top of me again. Starts fingering me I push his fingers away he holds my wrist down. He stops and we begin to fight. I tell him I'm not going to fuck him because he fucks everyone and that he's just shit. And so he gets on top of me again I was passing out drunk I obviously wasn't okay, and that's when it happened. That's when he raped me. The next three days I go on a bender to cope and after all that I confessed to my mom what had happened. She said we had to report it and I didn't want to because I know that I would lose a lot of friends. I reported it anyway and after that I went to the hospital got swabbed for DNA and all that stuff and then I tell my friend, Danielle. I told her because it was her party, it was her house I didn't want the cops to just show up unannounced. I was scared to tell her because I didn't want to lose her but she was supportive. She made a group chat with all our friends supporting me. And then Cam denied everything and Danielle believed him all my friends but one believed Cam and I lost all of them. Cam said that it never happened that I was doing this all for attention and so did Danielle. He said not to trust any of my friends because they all believe him. And I told them you know, I didn't spend 6 hours in a fucking hospital getting probed literally everywhere just for fun. Like that's not what I like to do in my free time. Cam calls me and yelled at me telling me I was ruining his life, that he was doing good getting his life together and that he has other charges and one more he goes to jail. And I told him he ruined my life when he stuck his dick inside me when I didn't want him to and he just kept calling me a liar and everybody believed him. Nobody believes the rape victim. And I'm still so lost it happened months ago but I just I don't know how to feel or how to even move forward from this. I don't know how to heal. And the cops all they did was give him a warning. A fucking warning for completely shattering my existence."

"Oh my God that's so fucked. Why wouldn't they believe you. I'm so sorry that happened to you. You just have to focus on yourself you have to focus on being okay Scar. And those people, they were never your friends you're so much better off without them. This doesn't define you Scarlett, you're a survivor; you're okay. You might not think you're okay but you are. You just have to take this one day at a time." Emilio says hugging her.

"Emilio I really do think I love you. But I'm scared, I'm so so scared."